What is meltdown feels like?

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i would like what feeling do u feel any pain during meltdown and your eyes goes distorted does it feel intense?

Not physical pain in my experience. For me it feels like panicking while trapped in a cage. It feels like an expression of powerlessness, and a visceral revolt because I am.

For me, it feels like internal panic. Sounds seem louder, I can't concentrate, I start breathing faster. I also become non verbal.

In a word, it's crushing, debilitating, can't do anything. Can't focus.

Honestly, it feels like I can't control anything that's going on, which includes the things that I do during the meltdown.
I usually can't focus on anything, and a lot of the time anything I talk about comes out as complete nonsense to whoever is listening. I also tend to freak out or panic over the smallest of things, such as certain noises, too much light, ect.
I find that intensity of meltdowns can vary. At worst cases I'll hyperventilate, sometimes I hit my legs, which is embarrassing for me afterwords. And a lot of the time I usually end up just completely shutting down.
Not sure if it's common, but I tend to "blank out" and forget details of what happened during meltdowns, and I'm usually mentally and physically exhausted after. It's difficult for the people around me, as well. I wish there was something I could do. I do my best now, but I still can't prevent it from happening a lot of the time.

When you're in a meltdown, you can't process even the most rudimentary information. You have no idea what's happening around you, and everything feels confusing: even trying to find the direction in which to walk.
As you can't process anything and everything feels mixed up, you naturally can't do any academic work, or even any basic work, for that matter. It can last from hours to several weeks, depending on how long the source of sensory overload and disruption is present.

But when you recover from the meltdown, your abilities return, and you regain the temporarily lost skills (including the fields of interests - but you can lose those if you don't practice too long, and can regain them easily with a bit of practice).

Your abilities can sink very low during a meltdown if it's strong enough. But it's always recoverable when the meltdown stops.

I still wonder what kind of stupid people put autistic people into institutions where they suffer constant disruptions and sensory overload. This only makes their state degrade. The best way to help an autistic person is to nourish their special interests (as in, provide books on the topic, or if it's a younger person, provide cubes and such) and leave them alone if they can't bear you.

Don't know if I meltdown or not...I do have angry outbursts which feel like a balloon popping...builds up and up and up until POP and I explode. It's an angry feeling. You're trying to push away the cause of the stress and trying to grasp control of the situation but the situation is quickly going out of control. I'll be honest and say I lash out. My boyfriend has to hold me down sometimes. It's also a panicky feeling. You feel angry at the percieved source of the outburst and they are the target of the rages...I feel very guilty and upset after it...usually just go into my room and lie down...

My meltdowns are contained online. I used to post long-winded rants but after people used those to call the police on me, I just take too many Instagram pictures and don't sleep for a few days.

Is there anybody else who gets physically ill after a meltdown?

I don't have really strong meltdowns which will make people call the police and have never had one that lasted for weeks. For me it starts with depersonalization where I start to lose control of my body and watch the surrounding out of my body. 'The focus' goes away and all the sounds are at the same tone and they they divide themselves into layers to cause more and more noise, I cannot understand the source, I cannot understand the spoken language or speak myself apart from mumbling. I start to shake, hyperventilate. I scream in the hope of shutting down the noises around. I don't like being touched, but during a meltdown it literally hurts my skin and I will send the person away and keep scratching where I'm touched. I will be dizzy and very possibly nauseated, can't keep balance. I harshly rub my face, hit my stomach with my fists and try to take off the skin on my neck probably thinking that it will help me breathe better. And I cry, like alot.

It's just a lot of pain and even more than pain, confusion. And I generally end up ill -eg. fewer, diarrhea, after a strong one.