As a kid I had some "friends". They only made friends with me because they pitied me and probably found me weird in an endearing way. So they didn't see me as a true peer. They just saw me as a cute little pet that looks so cute pretending to be human.
After that I can't trust that anyone sees me as a true peer. If they show any sign of being friendly, caring or finding me weird I just get paranoid. Whenever I get in contact with people I often abandon people. I wish I didn't do that, but I just do.
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Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 82 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 124 of 200
You are very likely neurotypical