It is something you are always thinking about often while simultaneously acting. You are constantly observing each NT you come in contact with because each of them is different. You need to find out there body language, hidden meanings and agendas for each NT you regulary interact with. You can not just observe, you have to regulary put on the act. This produces a lot of anxiety and exhaustion which makes it easier to make a mistake producing yet more mental stress meaning you have to try yet harder to keep up appearances.
People have done this for years and even decades and some aspects of it can get less diffucult as you get used to them. In the long run this can lead to burnout and many mental disorders. When that happens all efforts go for naught when the autistic traits can not be contained.
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Professionally Identified and joined WP August 26, 2013
DSM 5: Autism Spectrum Disorder, DSM IV: Aspergers Moderate Severity.
“My autism is not a superpower. It also isn’t some kind of god-forsaken, endless fountain of suffering inflicted on my family. It’s just part of who I am as a person”. - Sara Luterman