Any horrible experience make you terrified of something?
I'm terribly afraid of fire, my father was working on one of our jet skis when I was younger I think at the age of 12 or so, and the jet ski blew up in his face, and he was on fire, and jumped in the lagoon to get better. He got all messed up in the face, and lost his eyebrows and almost had to have reconstructive surgery, but took care of it so well that everything turned out okay, ever since then I hate fire. Also when I was in high school, this guy thought it would be funny to poor hot liquid wax down my throat as he was holding me down, and ended up burning alot of my throat, now I hate candles, or anything that has fire on it. I'm also scared of water, like drowing and stuff. Growing up my brother, and other people would think it was funny to drown me and see how long it took me to survive, I recall one time my brother tied me where I couldn't move when I was like 9, and threw me in the lagoon, counted how long it took me to untangle myself and make it to the surface before I ran out of breath.. Today I can untie myself out of anything! Also when I was 11, I was forced to go to a friends house for a pool party, and then forced to go in the water, I was just standing there, and one of the other girls wanted to show me a trick, and ended up hitting her head on the bottom of the pool, and when I saw she didn't come up, I didn't know what to do, so I started flurrying around until I got ppls attention then pointed to her, and before you knew it, ambulances, polices officers were at the house, and I watched this girl get huge tubes down her throat, and her turning blue, then watching blood shoot out of her, and hearing the paramedics say I don't know if shes going to make it also scarred me for life. She ended up making it and doesn't recall much of that day, bcause she also suffered some memory damage. Anybody here have horrible experiences that happened to them, that stop them from doing everyday things? I still go in the water, and the other day I was by a fire pit, I just am not the same after everything.
My God! What terrible experiences that you and your family went through. I can relate to your feelings.
I have to admit that I'm also terrified of fire too. Not because I personally experienced fire myself but there have been a number of fires around here over the years that really shook me up. There was one fire right across the street a few years ago. The smell of burning, the fire coming out of a place, the smoke, the noise of the fire engines and the residual smell of burning after everything it's over. Plus when a fire happens I have to know how it started and why. I'm a bit obessed with the cause of things. Everytime I see flashing lights in the window, hear fire engines blowing their sirens (especially those louder ones) and smelling burning I get real shaky. I had many dreams of fire too over the years that scared me too. I'm always worried that my house is going to burn down or catch fire. I'm always thinking about electric wiring (especially in the wall), our cellar, the attached houses to us, the outside wiring and etc.
I'm afraid of the water too. I can't get water in my eyes. I have to wear goggles in the shower when I wash my hair. I don't know how to swim because of my fear of the water. As a child I could of never went under the water and tolerate splashing. Sometimes the counselors in camp use to force me to dunk my head or swim under the water but I couldn't do it because I was afraid and was very uncomfortable with getting water in my eyes. Plus the feeling of going under the water is uncomfortable.
Even though I haven't experienced anything as severe as you I can certainly relate because I have the same fears and discomforts.
Geez, Age1600, you were surrounded by some terrible people! I hope those experiences haven't left any other scars.
I think I had maybe some incredibly mild PTSD after this terrible hospitalization experience when I was twelve (I got very, very sick because it took the doctors way too long to figure out I had a ruptured appendix instead of mono), because for years afterward I would freeze up when I had either my blood pressure taken or blood drawn (which were frequent experiences when I was in the hospital- blood drawn twice a day and blood pressure taken like 5 times a day). Also, when I had a PET scan a few years ago, and they were injecting the radioactive glucose into my veins, I guess it reminded me of having an IV because I started to tense up and the technician asked me if I was all right. I've gotten over the blood pressure and blood drawing thing now though, I guess because they've happened so many times since that I've gotten desensitized to them.
Your fears sound pretty justified in my mind and you should congratulate yourself on beinig able to be near fire and water,at all,afte those experiences.
My worst fears are stupid.I fear talking on the phone because they might ask me something I dont know the answer? or something.I feel like I am going to throw-up when-ever I have a job interview or something dealing with "authority" figures(and I'm 43,I should be over this,but still fell like I am 5 years old sometimes).I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I know I am going to have to go be in most social interaction situations.
My worst fear is driving.....I do drive within very limited areas that I know well, but I have to really work hard to over come the averssion to getting in the car.If something unexpected happens(rain,snow,windy,detour and have to change the path I go)....I have a panic attack and worry I will get lost or make a mistake and kill someone.Sometimes I have to pull over and do deep breathing to relax a enough to drive again.
I'm not afraid of water(except running the rapids...thats dangerious and I hated doing it growing up)but I also hate getting my face wet or getting water in my eyes and never go under the water when I swim.
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I was going to tell a little story about a big black and yellow garden spider, but, uh, never mind. I can't wrap my mind around your hideous experiences. I freak out when I see a kid put so much as a thread around their throat because I saw a little girl die while I was drawing her blood at the hospital because she accidentally hung herself. I can't imagine what I would do with your experiences. I know that because one must go on, one does, but......
Please tell me you don't have to put up with those people any more.
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