Guys, I must say that I have the strangest, distinct voice when I speak most of the time. The pace, tone, and everything is very boring and slow, almost like some people would consider me unintelligent or "special" when they first hear me speak... not that most people in my circles ever openly told me that kind of stuff at all. There were still a couple people in my life who told me about it. It's not really high-pitched or squeaky though. It's really the total opposite, it's extremely low. I was bothered when my mom sent a video on her phone to my sister the other day, when my voice was recorded in the background. I begged her not to send it and she told me to just shut up about it no matter what.
It's really frustrating for me internally and I sometimes get down because I have to socialize and try to make friends with it. I'm especially frustrated with my ignorant, nagging mom, because she insists that I don't have anything wrong and she totally disagrees with me even when the slightest "problem" I tell her about. I feel like she's being ignorant and deserves to be slapped on the face about it. How would she like it if she had a minor complaint and I responded by saying "You b****, stop complaining about this, there is nothing true about that", but I can't beat the ignorance at all because she "always knows what is best for me" and doesn't agree when I see something that is wrong with myself no matter what it is, she won't even give it any little acknowledgement at all.
I wish she just might as well walk out onto a busy street without looking first, get hit over by a car and the else. She thinks she knows what is best for me and only disagrees with things I say on forums like these a lot of the time. But how can I make her truly convinced that she doesn't know everything. Example, when I tell her my concerns about "the end of the world" stuff or other things, she tells me that I don't need to worry and she isn't concerned or agreed about anything at all no matter what.
I wonder, could this also be related to my diagnosis?
03 Sep 2017, 1:12 pm
