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fifasy
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25 Sep 2017, 12:04 pm

I'm Jewish but not religious. I do identify with my race because I've often been stared at for having different facial features.

I'm a published novelist. But after one novel I couldn't be bothered writing any more. Tons of negative reviews for what I wrote. And I am out of ideas anyway, that was it.

I'm an exhibited artist but I got bored of painting.

I'm lonely every day. I try to join groups and am rejected for being sensitive and untalented at jokes.

Arabs where I live glare at me just because I look Jewish. I won't go in the restsurantsd they run anymore because of how intimidating it is.

I have no friends. I don't know what the point of my life is. I want to find a cure for autism but at the same time I ask why anything even matters, I have been desperatgr for help and nobody cares.

I might be able to survive, but maybe on!y if I lock myself away in my apartment and stop going out. Every day people won't leave me a!one they are in my face, what do they want off me.

I think the WOR!d hates Jews. Hypocrites. Jesus was one and the WOR!d loves him. My life stinks.



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25 Sep 2017, 12:12 pm

I'm a Jew.

To be honest, I don't find many people who "hate" Jews.

It's more like there is a grudging sort of respect for them.

There are many other restaurants in your area, probably, where people won't stare at you because of your "Jewish" look.

Do yourself a favor: continue to do your art, and continue to pursue your other interests.

Don't create an ideology based on stuff you find on the Internet, and the few who are blatantly prejudiced any ANYBODY.



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25 Sep 2017, 12:20 pm

I don't feel safe. I might continue with my art and other interests though.



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25 Sep 2017, 12:23 pm

People don't hate Jews here in the UK. I just don't think there are many here at all tbh (north London aside) so not a culture that ever comes to people's minds.

I went to NY once and was amazed that there were just orthodox Jews wandering around. Felt other worldly.

That is some achievements you have listed, fifasy. You should be proud! I dream of being a published novelist!



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25 Sep 2017, 12:28 pm

I once got poetry published in a university magazine----I met the editor of it on the subway.

That's the extent of my publishing accomplishments.



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25 Sep 2017, 12:44 pm

Biscuitman wrote:
People don't hate Jews here in the UK. I just don't think there are many here at all tbh (north London aside) so not a culture that ever comes to people's minds.

I went to NY once and was amazed that there were just orthodox Jews wandering around. Felt other worldly.

That is some achievements you have listed, fifasy. You should be proud! I dream of being a published novelist!


Thanks. I am kind of proud of the novel. Nothing replaces friends, romance or all those other things that make life happy though.

Besides the novel in the public's eyes (going from reviews) is a turkey. :!:



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25 Sep 2017, 12:48 pm

A turkey is better than a gnat.

I recall you have received positive feedback for your art, and was able to sell at least one of your paintings.

i sense you are feeling down today, and are thinking in "half-empty" terms, rather than "half-full" terms.



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25 Sep 2017, 1:06 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
I once got poetry published in a university magazine----I met the editor of it on the subway.

That's the extent of my publishing accomplishments.


That was an achievement. Its not easy getting in a magazine. Yeah, I am feeling down. Thanks for trying to cheer me up.