chris5000 wrote:
I only took 25mg and it would knock me out
I would avoid anti psychotics unless you are actually psychotic though
I have depression I know that much, and it's often very sever when it comes on. It's sort of like split personality. I can be fine, but then if something tips me I got into a nasty spiral which can last hours, or days. And when I go into this major depressive state I lose control of rational thought, and behaviour. My head will be a huge jumble of thoughts racing. The usual outcome is either self harm, anger outbursts, or doing something irrational.
I was locked in the house the other day. I left a note, planned my escape from the world, and was about to head off to the car park. I was caught just before I was about to leave. I ended up being taken to hospital in an ambulance.
The following day I thought "What the heck was I doing". I had family rush to my house to check I was ok. I worried everyone sick. But when I look back I think to myself what the hell did I do. But the moment I end up in one of these episodes again I'll try it again, because I can't think rationally. It's a one track mind "to escape this world".
I hope that makes sense.
I have days, and months, where I am in a low mood constantly. But that's just normal depression. The stuff above, I don't what it is. It seems different.