I was put on Zyprexa and Taxilan years ago, at first for supposed Bipolar, then for supposed Schizophrenia.
Right now my docs say I should go off them if I can, but I can't. And by trying to go off them, I realized that they help me pretty much. My idea was also that I should go off them, because No schizophrenia > no Antipsychotics. But the equation doesn't seem to add up.
When I go off these, like recently when I was of them for 1 month, I grow very edgy and restless. I am offended by minor social stuff, I'm jumpy, and whenever someone does something sudden, or against my idea of how it should be done, I get these little nervous breakdowns.
I don't really believe that it's the withdrawal. I can clearly remember that I was exactly like this in my teens and early adult life, before being introduced to zyprexa and such. So I basically become my (true) self, and it feels BAAAAD.
Maybe this stuff is actually good for me? even if I don't really have Schizophrenia or Bipolar? (actually I believe myself that I actually do have mild bipolar. my doc onced said I might have "Cyclothymia")
Anyone else on Antipsychotics with good results? like for edgyness or being sensitive or mild agressiveness or whatever?
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Aspie score: 131 of 200
NT score: 34 of 200
Possibly Aspie (diagnosed by an autism expert, doc moves abroad, forced to change docs and all say it's schizophrenia NOS or schizo-affective disorde or personality disorders. initial doc was a colleague of uncle Simon btw. you do the math.). (edit: by Uncle Simon I mean Simon Baron Cohen. Just to clear things up.)