Is it possible I have mild aspergers?
Hello, I've been researching symptoms of aspergers syndrome lately and I've noticed I have a lot of the symptoms associated with it.
For one, I'm very socially awkward and have trouble interacting with strangers. Small talk is total mental gymnastics for me, and has been for a while. Have trouble making friends because I don't bother talking to people due to how socially inept I am. I feel like I have a lot of trouble reading people too. I still do have friends, but I pretty much talk to all of them through discord and refrain from doing real life things.
Another sign is the fact that I compulsively obsess over things and then drop it after a couple of weeks to a month. When I was a kid it used to be robots, and I would spend hours of the day researching robots on the internet. Eventually after a couple of years I dropped that, and my obsession became collecting retro game consoles, I eventually dropped that. Then it was paintball, then pocket knives, now it's architecture for some weird reason. That's not counting all the little obsessions I had between them that lasted for weeks to a month. These obsessions are very intense and disappear like I was never interested in them in the first place.
Other small things consist of the fact that I don't like to go into loud, crowded places. I'm also very routine, I don't like to deviate from my daily schedule and the first few weeks of the new semester in college are absolutely terrible because I have to change how I go about my day. I park in the same exact spot every day for example (at least this semester)
I'm not sure if aspergers is really on a spectrum, but if it is and I have mild aspergers it's a good explanation for a lot of my problems in life. I was never diagnosed with anything as a kid, although very early on I did have behavioral problems at school, eventually those went away and I became very quiet.
Nobody can diagnose you over the internet. The answer is, we don't know.
One thing to remember is that autism and asperger's are things that you are born with and they will manifest themselves from birth or from early infancy/childhood. If you didn't have the traits by the time you were 2/3/4, you likely don't have it.
I was diagnosed with mild asperger's at a highly respected autism centre. They explained to me that it is a high functioning form that ranges from mild to severe.
Even if your traits don't impair your ability to function on a daily basis, you could still have the "Broader Autism Phenotype." It applies to people who have significant traits but not to a clinical point that would warrant a diagnosis. Basically, it's "borderline autism." Even if you don't have straight-forward autism, you're still very welcome here. I first came here in the belief that my traits were sub-clinical and still found the advice and tools for coping with my traits very useful.
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