Are autistics fantasy better than reality?

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I believe I am Asperger/autistic. Anyway less about that and more about my main point.

Like anyone here will relate I spent most of my life in my bedroom by choice, hardly going anywhere unless essential, not even school but exams for example...Most of my thoughts and desires I guess where built up by tv and celebrity as its all I saw in my room.

After University I decided one life and I must do something, I done something crazy for a guy who would hardly wonder out his house but travelled the world..ALONE!!...and even got some social type jobs!! yes many things did go about wrong or was caught in bad way but overall it went pretty smoothly.

Yet I came to the conclusion that the dream world I/we live in is so much more powerful than reality.

heres some examples of my conclusions

I visited beautiful tropical islands and enjoyed being there but it didn't match the expectations and colours seen on internet and tv and my dreams, once there it was like I'm there this is great but kinda now what? When seen on tv etc its like I wanna go there.

When I saw the party places in sun with all the bars and clubs, music and easy sex, it looked great and I wanted to go,,when I went I got drunk, I didn't really like the noise and all the people and felt out of place etc, and the drunken less than desirable girls offering me sex weren't really of much appeal after all. I ended up ditching them and going to strip bar to find more attractive ones lol..moving on to similar point..

Due to my Asperger I see everything so when I meet women I always see stuff that puts me off, I see every little detail, even just a spot or bit fat or something wrong and I don't want to get close to them due to this.

So, the beautiful models on interent and tv again seems cool the thought of hooking up with them especially as my standards high...Well I got escorts just like them and even better and it was just sex etc, wasn't like that great haha...though as said I could never have sex with less attractive girls just due to my OCDs over issues related to people ..Still I do enjoy to hang around and look at the hotties..Like the girls I could hook up with and did a few when abroad wasn't much appeal to many physical flaws. Again even when I went to sex clubs and many attractive women I would still see things put me off them haha....

Moving on to another thing..I see sports games on tv or video games and looks amazing and I wanna play them irl but when I get there even though I have some skills I kinda get bored and then lose interest yet again ill watch on tv and get motivated..I see a player beat 3 opponents and score a wonder goal and I'm like WOW amazing, so I go get a game IRL I beat 3 players score a great goal and it was good but then now what? I have to keep doing it for rest of game, well score at least, its weird haha, I cant even see me doing it so its not so good, I don't know how good it looked unless some film it...Like I started playing with these new guys and was talking with one of them few weeks later and there opinion of me was wow what a player yet I'm like I suck, I cant see myself and what I do so its hard to know how good I am if that makes sense? off course I know if I score a goal or how many but cant judge my overall play...I can see other players on my team and see he always scores great goals or does this and that so have opinion but its really hard to rate yourself, so if we taking the sport of soccer here and Messi, he is amazing for us to watch but for him its prob not that exciting, I mean he does what hes doing but cant see if from 3rd perspecitv..anyone how plays sports will relate?

I remember a goal I scored I know it mustve looked great I ran to ball 50-50 with defender coming to me and got ball first, done a roulette 360 turn to spin away from him, then ran into goal and shot a 25 yarder into bottom corner of post...Now like this was cool but it was physical effort and concentarion from me, it would be far more fun to actually watch this happen...So my point again is though I can watch sports and appreciate excitement they bring and be motivated to play them even when I get there and do something amazing its just not as good as the fantasy of doing it or seeing it,

But again overall its like I live in a dream, everything seems better in my room and imagination than real life, I feel or felt I was missing out on real life but when I done it it was like well my dreams were better haha though I would always prefer reality over the dreams cause well you experience it and that's the fun even if the dream of what you though was better than how it turned it out if that makes sense.

For example I dream of going to Japan and imagine hwo cool Tokyo is and how amazing the temples etc will be but when I get there it wont be that good though it will still be good haha..

maybe this the same for all people not autistics only?

But linked to this I remember going on a crazy rollercoaster with school mates and it was going upside down and everything and they were all screaming and stuff and I was deadpan...a girl was like wtf you just sat there the whole time with no reaction haha...that's like real life its like things happen but I don't really experience them if you get me...like my head is always somewhere else...in another dream!! ! I'm carrying out one dream whilst dreaming the next dream never in the present always in the clouds..

On some level I can relate as I spend a lot of time fantasizing and always have, but I also did some wild stuff in my life (and will keep doing), I guess a lot of times simply just to compare it to my fantasies/books. I travelled a lot - next year even planning to go to Japan! Although nothing ever is like on the photos, some things are better or at least different and I like going there and "checking". Also I think my curiosity is as strong as my need to be inside my head, I feel these two forces are pushing me into different directions sometimes. One wanting me to stay inside, the other wanting to explore. It is hard to find a good balance but I managed so far, but of course there were (and still are) a lot of weird situations, although now I navigate better in the social minefield and mostly manage to avoid real danger. I had problems in the past because of my naiveté...
And yeah, i am perfectly capable of being lost in my fantasies while doing some activities with people, it is embarrassing how much it can be only my body that is there... I offended a lot of people in my life because they noticed that "I wasn't there." But sometimes I can't help it.

yeh my issues have prevented me doing things not that I didn't want to do them...id always want to travel and meet hot girls and have fun parties etc but not always been easy or possible..

Reality compared to what's in my head doesn't compare, never has. Most of the time I am lost in my own world and now that I am totally disabled, I never get out except when I have to. I used to be at least able to tolerate the outside world. Now I avoid it as I have little reason to be part of it.

I have a very rich fantasy world as everyone will see in a couple of days. My fantasy world is filled with all different shapes and colours.

Care to expand?

What you're describing here doesn't sound like autism, it sounds more like Maladaptive Daydreaming:
http://daydreamingdisorder.webs.com/

MD and autism/AS can most likely be comorbid and there is some speculation over whether it is commonly comorbid, but there hasn't been any research into that.

Possibly how can I stop daydreaming, even when I play say soccer I start daydreaming and lose interest in the game and then don't play well or at all lol...I guess I'm bored and tired by that point anyway so stopped caring..