Azureth wrote:
I have heard that people that are autistic have an even worse chance of becoming addicted to smoking/drinking and the like than NT people. I believe I am. I have been a smoker for the past 8 years, and have a smoke every 30-40 minutes. Even my friends say I smoke like a freight train. Far as drinking, I have drank a lot with friends over the years, causing many blackouts, like I always hear them say they know when their limit is, but I don't get that. If say there are 2-3 beers/shots left I feel compelled to drink them.
I haven't done much "partying" or drinking liquor for quite awhile now, but for the past 1 1/2 years I have gotten into a "routine" wherein I drink a six pack every night while watching youtube/netflix. I am also physically disabled and live in an apt with a roommate and am on SSI. Of course, I realize all of it is bad, and even for NT people can become addicted, but I know I get into this thinking of "I'll stop when x happens" or "I'll stop at y date". Obviously it doesn't happen. Any thoughts?
I've been a smoker for 12 years. I believe what makes cigarettes especially addictive is that it's a way to stim that's socially more acceptable, aside from the obvious chemical addiction.
I'm also an alcoholic. I was blackout drunk almost every night for about 2 years or so. I can't really say for certain, because that's how badly it ruins your concept of time when you drink all the time. I'm a heavy drinker. I can drink more than most men, always more than every woman I've met, and it often becomes a sideshow like attraction for people. I never had to buy my own drinks at bars. I rarely drink anything "softer" than hard liquor. Dependence on alcohol makes one's ability to successfully cope and function non-existent. It gets very ugly, very quickly, with very little.
I'm struggling to detach myself from both. It's been 5 years now that I've been trying to quit. I almost died from alcohol poisoning twice. I've smoked so much that I am literally gasping for breath in bed. No incident, no risk, no threat is going to make you quit. You have to just decide that you don't want to be a part of it anymore. It's the only thing that works, and even then it requires self discipline. But it's a lot easier than suffering the consequences of not quitting.
I wish you lots of luck.
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