New Job stuff!

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Hi Everybody! Just need to vent a little here.

So. I put myself through school, got my Masters in Information Science and I just got a job as a Community Engagement Librarian (Yay!) Granted, I have to do social things, but I got some pretty solid masking skills that makes that workable and I have plenty of me time to keep my stress level on an even keel most days, BUT.

I have not worked in a business environment in over twenty years. Certain little things are getting to me like;

Wearing a dress. I love wearing dresses (I actually forgot how much I like the feel of heels and a skirt) but it's getting colder now and I have to wear tights (I loathe stockings. I always run them). I don't like wearing tights. They itch and they roll down at the top and I have to wear precisely my size or I'll spend my day rolling them up or they bunch up at my crotch. Sensory speaking, it's irritating all the way around.

I am having trouble reading my coworkers. Generally speaking, I *think* I'm well liked and appreciated, but... this is a new space. Everyone seems to be listening to me and valuing my opinion, but I can't really tell how I'm being received. The good news is that my manager seems to think I'm the bee's knees. She's done a great job at reassuring me of my skills and my position and answering any question I might have. (I did disclose to her my ASD status, btw).

I'm getting overstimulated too quickly and my anxiety is through the roof most days. I think the new schedule I'm on is throwing everything out of wack in my head. I nearly forgot I had to work today because I've been forgetting to put my schedule in my calendar. I've been trying to compensate by writing EVERYTHING down that I have to do. Still, I've been resorting to Xanax a little more than usual. I'm trying to find alternate ways to quiet the noise in my head, but nothing BUT the Xanax is working.

But, BUT! I love this job. For the first time in my life, I'm doing something that I should be doing. I've spent this morning planning events for April (Autism awareness month - which, I'll take any ideas that anyone happens to have) and I genuinely feel like I'm working in a place that I don't have to play NT as often and I'm valued for this strange operating system that I have. I hope this continues.

Congratulations on the new job!

Maybe you could wear leggings under dresses when it gets cold?

Leggings are better, I'll give you that. If I can find some that *look* like tights, but are leggings, I think I can swing that.

Congratulations on the new job and all your accomplishments. I can sympathize with the not wanting to wear anything on your legs. I can't stand it.

I would think that increased anxiety would be pretty normal when starting a new job, even one you like. Sounds like things are going well I think you will be great.

Thanks. I think you're right. Change, adjustment. Not really my strong suits. I'll survive. I always do.

She didn't know how to live in a town that was rough. It didn't take long before she knew she had enough. Walking home in her wrapped up world. She survived but she's feeling old. And she found all things cold.
Strangelittlegirl, where are you going? Strangelittlegirl, where are you going? Do you know where you could be going?

Sorry , can't help myself.

Congrats on getting a job that you love

Ha! Love it! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Of course, now the song's stuck in my head. lol

Oh, well. It is kind of my theme song.

Strangelittlegirl,

Congratulations on your new job!

Thank you!! !