I don't know why but when I went for a wander on my own (with no friends as I have few friends who go out) to my local town today because there is festival going on, I still had this feeling of not being part of the festival atmosphere and seeing people there younger than me (29) or may be a bit older with their friends chatting, laughing, drinking, taking selfies and going there with their girlfriends and boyfriends made me feel inside like a lone unattractive weirdo and whenever they might look as walk past they know what I'm thinking even they don't as they can't read minds and it seems to make me feel that not doing what they are doing is a requirement to have a happy life with plenty of friends to hang out with. Whenever I've gone to events like these or places where there are lots of young people around with friends, girl or boyfriends I get seem to get these feelings maybe of jealousy, and the need to belong.
