Reasons to give up my paracosm
1 I'm now in a place where it's ok to be me
2 It's sapping time and energy
3 I could spend that time and energy on other projects like my writing or on going out to places
Reasons not to give up my paracosm
1 It still feels real and I'm sad to kill off all the people in it
2 It inspires me to do art and writing
3 It sustained me when I was ill
4 It's a better obsession than an unhealthy one would be
5 It's something I can do alone on a day when it's flooded
6 I've set it up in such a way that either or doesn't work. Either this place ceases to exist or it is kept alive by me, every day
7 Mum asks me about it and she doesn't generally care about my life because my life lacks people. She spends like 5 minutes talking about me then it's back to her again. If I make up people then she'll talk to me for longer because she likes talking about people.
Paracosm is like maladaptive daydreaming.