I am not sure if I am getting this. I mean. Those on the spectrum seem just as normal to me as those who are not except those on the spectrum understand a lot more of the things I can personally relate to, while those who are not don't want to know or just don't know where I am coming from.
I think of it this way. Lets say it is found that I am not on the spectrum. (I dont actually know either way). Then it will be that those who are on the spectrum know so much more about life and how our brains work then those who are not on the spectrum, as those who are not may not even want to analyse things... Why analyse when one has no reason to?
I have a mind thing trying to see where I personally fit in. I mean.. Some on the spectrum I don't relate to as in their concepts and ways are very different then mine. Yet, a good portion on the spectrum I can identify with as I personally can relate to it.
I know I am not a normal average human being in that I very much am an individual who does his own thing. Always have been. So the concept of me not being on the spectrum which certainly is possible leave me in a position of thinking of "Where do I fit then?" As I certainly am not the same as most people! Maybe I just am so unique that I don't fit in any catagory! Haha!
I love this site as it gets me thinking and analysing. Also, it is refreshing as I find that on here there are people who can relate to me, and I to them (No matter if we are on the spectrum or not) so I am getting to really know myself and u derstand myself when I aas just going round in circles before not making head or tail about anything, which is so frustrating!
A question about masking. Can someone who is not on the spectrum be an expert at masking. I mean... I have felt for so many years that there is the real me inside, and I habe to put on an act to be accepted. I feel rhat "If only they knew the real me" but then the few times I am the real me means I am very much alone. Ok, God understands me totally and to some extent my Mum does, but until I came on this site I didn't think I would ever fine anyone else who does.
Anyway. Before I write round the world and back... I better let you lot write some replies!
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