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So, I'm ranting about my ignorant family members with whom I don't wish to have any dependence with any longer.
My mom's opinion of me and also her husband and my grandma(mom's mom) Here ya go! : I am a self-centered brat that doesn't deserve respect because I don't earn it and she apparently "bends over backwards" for me. I'm the child(i'm 21) and she is the adult and she doesn't need to respect me because she has the power and I have none because I'm the child. I must listen to everything she says and if I argue, I'm completely at fault. I have no opinion and I'm completely ungrateful for them and all they do for me. I carry a stable job and although they know nothing about my suspicions of autism it doesn't matter because "there isn't anything wrong with me" There fore they won't know about my evaluation that I'm having tomorrow. I pay bills, I drive and I take care of myself. I do live with them but I'm independent as much as possible. They tell me my issues with caffeine are the reasons why I "jitter"...It's my stimming. I have started a newer stim with just my hands for about a year now and they tell me it's because I don't eat the right foods. They try to tell me I haven't been rocking back and forth and stimming my whole life but when I look back I have been..ever since I was little. They always told me to stop and yelled at me to stop stimming and if I didn't they would punish me ans scream at me. I feel like a fony autist but I know I am because FACTS people. I'm having an evaluation done tomorrow and I'll know for sure then. I'm just emotionally hurting and I can't actually tell them whats wrong because nothing I say matters to them. they don't get it. They push it aside.

Relax. Get the assessment done first before making decisions. You may find yourself in a position where help is available anyway. I don't know much. I am waiting for assessment. In the UK this can be several years of waiting but in my area it is now a bit quicker. Still a wait though. But my thoughts are that maybe if you are found to be on the spectrum maybe then someone can speak to your family at a professional level? If then it does not work, then maybe you could have help to move out. It does sound like your family do care for you. You may not understand this yet but later in life you may understand. So try not to say anything you may regret. Relax. Have patience, and see how the assessment goes.
And I hope all goes well for you.

Thanks. I'll try to chill out but it does hurt so much. I will wait for the diagnosis. Either positive or negative.

Good luck with the eval, UM.

How soon will you be able to move into your own flat?

Good luck

I can share something that my boss (diagnosed AS) once said to me:
Mothers are like that. You will be a tenured professor and they will still tell you how you should live.

Good luck with moving out!