Is there a word for this? Help, please?

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Hi everyone, I am kind of suffering and I am not sure what is going on.
I just saw the term "mental breakdown"
Is that what this is?

I have been diagnosed with autism and SPD.

Today in the morning I went to a cafe thinking I was going to study.
I couldn't study very well, the music was loud even with noise cancelling headphones, there was too much light, and I didn't feel comfortable in the atmosphere.

I came back home. And I just keep getting progressively worse. This is the first time I've felt bad anxiety in a few weeks, as I am on an SSRI.

My body is aching a bit. And I feel like I am spiraling. I just feel mental pain and anguish.

Perhaps just a panic attack?

Does anyone get like this? I don't even know if this is connected to autism.

Maybe functioning depression? Maybe spiralling down to a clinical depression? I assume that it wasn't happy fun times in your life that brought you to the therapist for an assessment. Maybe the fatigue from it. Do you know what the side effect from the medications are? (those are rhetorical questions, obviously, I don't want to know the answer)

Ultimately, only a qualified professional can tell you, unfortunately. You should call your therapist asap. Maybe your pharmacist just to be sure.

If this continues, I will tell my psychiatrist.
I haven't gone to therapy in about a year or so.

Oh god I feel bit better.
Although body still aching a bit.
I think my brain and body ran out of room to control all the crap that makes me feel horrible and so it just let it all go.

Ugh.

Autistic shutdown: https://everydayaspie.wordpress.com/2017/02/05/574/

Autistic burnout:
https://boren.blog/2017/01/26/autistic- ... d-passing/

These speak volumes. Thank you.
However, I also have some schizoaffective and I am not sure if the burnout/regression comes from one or the other or both. I ended up having to go at a slower pace with university and I am very concerned that it will be a significant problem for any future schooling.

Ran into that in grad school. Had to stretch out my Master's 25 years ago. I don't have any diagnoses other than ADHD and HFA. Manifested mainly as task paralysis (look up 'autistic task paralysis'). The real fun was precipitated in the last several years by my NT ex making me try to mask 24/7/365. Became virtually nonfunctional outside of work. Unable to do housework, hypersensitive to about everything. Just started coming out of it recently.

If school was the only stress, then you might have to slow down (but everyone is different and I'm not a therapist, just have been there and still wear the t-shirt). Good luck figuring out the best way forward for you.