Self-destructive tendencies - turning own life into tragedy

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Let's put it like this:
I entered into uni. Studied my ass off excellent grades. I saw how others got further in life by doing social networking. I was determined that I'd rather die than do something so lowly. I was planning things like I'd ask for cleaner's wage and become professional in my field (science) by circumventing rules (that are against me financially) and offering work for free without lunch breaks and so on. People ignored me and thought that I was crazy. As of today I think that life is not meant for living and life in itself is a joke and vast majority of people are living in mass psychosis. I think that I should die lonely (even if I would benefit for relationship) and poor making my life some sort of gigantic joke.

Is this typical for autistic?

There are many ways one can come to be sort of disconnected from one's own life. If you come to a point where things seem hopeless, there may be a contributing factor of unrealistic expectations. A "lowly" job can be a blessing in that often little is expected of you. It can help establish a foundation from which tentative explorations of the social world can be attempted.

Seeing one's life as a series of experiments one is conducting can help take the pressure off that one might feel to 'achieve".

One may even come to build a niche in life within which a degree of comfort or even pleasure might be experienced.

I have always wanted to discover something great but in a way I'd remain anonymous. One thing about academia is that I do not like that they use names. I think they should use secret identifiers when articles are published.

I saw social networking lowly. Not any job itself lowly.