I'm terrible at keeping track of time, I have practically no sense of it. Has it been ten minutes? Forty-five? Unless I've been looking at my watch, I don't know. I rely on alarms on my phone, but even those I'm bad with - I turn them off so they'll stop going off, but then I finish up whatever I was doing and somewhere in there, forget that I was supposed to be done or what I was supposed to be doing instead.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"