My mind sometimes fills in gaps when I am with people. Seems to be persecutory in nature. When I play back in my mind something I thought I heard, it's so real. This on top of struggling to read social cues and keeping up with conversations. Life sometimes seems blurry to me with my challenges, like I'm a ghost and I don't feel real. I am centered now, but everyday I spend hours on centering activities just to live independently and maintain employment. I feel underappreciated sometimes with the effort I put in just to show up ready to interact with people. Thank you for letting me vent. I know I am not alone in my struggles and that helps a lot.