An interesting dream that I had

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So I don't remember the previous part of that dream. I think I was involved in organizing some of my stuff and puting them in certain places. I think I was trying to set up some kind of sophisticated board game of my own invention (which is what I used to do as a little kid) but I am really not sure. The part that I remember clearly is probably the end. So here is where it starts:

So at some point I have a dinner with some guy who is also Russian and at some point, either before the dinner or during, somehow he gets to talk to Trump. I think Trump was visitting this place and now his visit was over and he was going to a different place. So that guy advises Trump to pack his stuff and leave since this particulat term of his presedency is about to be over -- yes, he might end up boing for the second term, but second term is not the same as his first term, the point is that the "first term" is about to be over (regardless of whether or not he would be re-elected) so he shouldn't act like it won't be. So then, after he was done talking to Trump, I asked him whether he assumes that he will lose re-election. At first he said he didn't -- and simply repeated what I just said about the first and second term. But then when I asked him exactly what was his point in dwelling on such a technicality, he then admitted that he thinks Trump will lose -- and then talked about how Trump mishandled coronavirus situation.

So then I told him that he has another few months, so why did he encourage him to pack up instead of encouraging him to change his ways so that he can make up for his past mistakes by handling it very well. That guy then asked me why I care about it so much. I told him that its because, due to Asperger, I make a lot of my own mistakes and I want to fix them but nobody gives me second chances. So if I was in Trump's shoes I would desperately want to change the way I handle coronavirus crisis in order to undo my mistakes. He told me he appreciates the way I operate but most NT-s aren't that way. So I thought that its interesting that he said NT-s aren't that way, especially since when people make assumptions about me not changing they act like I wouldn't change due to being an aspie.

Then at certain other point in conversation, I don't remember if I asked him for food or offered him food or what happened. But he told me that its not a good idea to do it -- and insinuated that if I do that with a man then the man will assume I am gay -- but he didn't explicitly say it, he just insinuated it. I wanted to ask whether he in fact insinuate the gay thing or whether I just read into it something he didn't say -- but I didn't have guts to ask him since I was worried that if I do ask him I would come across as gay for worrying about it too much. In any case, despite telling me that it was inappropriate, he started giving me a bunch of food. So I was wondering whether its because he knows I am not gay and just warns me against others for my future reference, or whether he endulges me in gay things because he assumes I am gay. But, despite my concern about the second part, I start eating that food anyway since I can't resist.

Then I briefly woke up and then I fell asleep again, and after I fell asleep again I saw the following:

So the background information is that I prefer to use hard copy of the printouts for math and physics things I am studying -- but due to corovavirus situation I am forced to only use them online. Anyway, in that dream, I was near Kinkos and I realized that this particular Kinkos was open -- so I was going to go to Kinkos in order to print out the things that my professors posted for my math classes I am taking. But for some reason instead of going up the stairs I ended up climbing from the side. I think there were stairs -- I simply missed them and went the wrong way, so it was entirely my mistake (and no I didn't do it on purpose -- perhaps I was just too much in a hurry to get to Kinkos so I didn't want to bother taking a little extra turn to get to the stairs). But then I found out that I didn't have strength to climb up to the top and, at the same time, I was too far above the ground to jump since I would break myself if I do. There were two or three girls up at the top, so I asked one of them to help me get up -- and I thought to myself that the "silver lining" would be that her helping me out would draw us closer. She agreed to help me, so I thought "okay, good, finally a woman doesn't avoid me; I know that I wouldn't expect her to ignore me -- since its a critical situation -- and she probably would avoid me any other time; but still I should give her credit for not avoiding me this time". But then a new problem came up: her hands were not strong enough to pull me up. In fact, it felt like she was making motions as if she was pulling me up, but I didn't feel any drag at all. She also was considering pulling me up by my hair, and I thought to myself that pulling me by my hair would be useless, but I agreed for her to do it since I was desperate and had no idea what else to do, so I was grasping at the straws. In any case, she couldn't reach my hair. Then at some point one other girl joined in to help her, but neither of them were successful. One good thing is that I *was* able to switch different places where I was holding on to, I just couldn't pull myself up (in fact I went as far with my hands as going from one side of the corner of the staircase to the other). Actually I also realized that I wasn't trying to pull myself up either, so maybe if I were to try to pull myself up I would succeed, it could go either way. But for some reason I was afraid that if I were to attempt to pull myself up and it won't work I would more likely to fall down than if I simply hang there. At the same time I also knew that if I keep hanging there I will eventually fall down too -- but I felt like if I attempt to pull myself up I would fall down much quicker so I wanted to prolong this and hope that one of those girls will FINALLY find a way to pull me up. When both girls realized that they didn't have strength to pull me up they suggested at some point that they would put down a blanket on the ground and then I can fall into the blanket to soften the fall. I told them I don't want to do it because I am afraid I would break something even with the blanket. So then they kept trying to pull me up again, and we were kind of going in circles between my thinking that maybe I should try to pull myself up on my own -- but being afraid to go ahead and do it -- and them suggesting the blanket idea again and me saying no. Then finally I woke up which was bad since then I don't know what would happen to my dream-self, maybe I will fall down since I won't be pulling myself up any more. So then I decided to pull myself up as I was awake, so I purposely dragged myself up the pillow.

A lot of reading material here!

The first part actually makes some sense in symbolic terms.

The Russian guy, in essence, gives you the same lecture that elders often give to young folks in general (NT and ASD, but ASD kids need to hear it more often)- the lecture about how "you never get a second chance to make a first impression". He is saying that Trump has messed up on his "job interview", and that NT America wont "hire him" again.

May, or may not, be literally true in real life about the coming election. But as a nonliteral parable that part of the story definitely does CONTAIN some truth about life, by using a POTUS as a character.

After that it gets really strange.

NTs of the same gender offer each other food, and drink, all of the time to ease social interaction. However it IS the custom that men buy women food on dates. So there is both error and truth in what the Russian dude was telling you in the second part.

Girls trying in vain to rescue you at Kinkos? Could be just a mundane anxiety nightmare - your body does that to you sometime to keep you from going to bathroom while you sleep- generates stories to keep your muscles tight.

Or it could be symbolic of something. The dream turns the old "damsel in distress" theme on its head, and has two damsels trying to rescue you in distress.

I didn't go to the bathroom when I woke up. I actually started typing it when I woke up (I had my computer in bed).



Actually, when I romanticize about girls I usually romanticize about myself being vulnerable and them trying to save me. And my dreams tend to reflect this. Much of my dreams involving girls have to do with girls helping me out in some way. Although a lot of those dreams aren't as bad as this one -- I had some good dreams when I know I will be fine as long as I stay under the girls wing and then get upset when I am about to wake up as to what I will do without her.

In real life too when I talk to women (which doesn't happen very often but when I am lucky enough for this to happen) I tend to start to complain about my problems both because I like to complain to everyone and also becase I feel like this would help me to connect to that woman.

There is one glaring example from the real life when I was the one helping the woman. My second ex (back in 2007--2009) lost a lot of blood due to PCOS and she could barely walk, so I was helping her. In fact this is what drew us closer. But then when she was no longer as sick she became cranky and it wore me down, but I still stayed with her out of pity because I remember what she was like when she was sick and I didn't want to betray her. But at the same time I strated having temper problems hoping she would break up with me herself -- and she did, in 2009 --although the time I stopped liking her was 2008. So I felt bad ever since over the fact that I betrayed her like that. Sometimes when I see flowers on the road I take them off the road so that cars won't drive over them since I associate sick flowers (or anything else that is sick) with her. In fact, I asked the current girl whom I am talking to to write to her in order to "undo" the way I "betrayed" her all those years back.

So I guess, after I had that particular girl, I learned the concept of viewing girls as damsels in distress and I treated some of the other girls I dated after her in that way. But for the most part I was receiving more help than I was giving. In any case, treating a girl as damsel in distress is a different type of feeling really. When a girl is a damsel in distress, that feels a little bit more like being with a cat whom I don't want to betray, but when girl is helping me while I am in distress, that is what would turn me on romantically or even sexually. In my dreams, when I am helping someone in distress, that entity is usually a cat or a kitten. But when someone is helping me while I am in distress, then its a girl.

I don't remember my dreams generally.

I don't either, thats why this time I hurried up and wrote it down while I still remembered it. Well I guess the process of typing helped me to remember, so I actually remember it without having to read what I wrote.

I remember a select few dreams though. Not the whole dreams but certain small parts of them.

During the 'stay-at-home' directives, how many have gleaned useful insights from (sleep) dreams? Might these insights retain their values in a future (Post-Covid) time?

Any specific insights?