Danusaurus wrote:
How do you find explaining to yourself what you feel when you aren't sure what it is you feel, coming from someone who can't relate it to like something I've felt before like a time or place etc.. I have no other way to explain it than above, hope it makes sense... Like I'm kinda stuck on a simple yes or no choice, simple stuff.. ? Right.. wth please share your thoughts or input .. I mean it makes sense to me what I wrote.. sigh.
I can fully relate to this.

I was never able to explain to the doctors what the shutdowns were in a way they understand. Other things as well.
Some things I have no problems with relating to things and feelings, but in one or two areas I can feel feelings but not know what they are? Anxiety was one of them. Only now I know what the feeling is, yet I have had it on and off since I was a child, and especially every morning before school or before work etc. It was rare not to feel it except with days off. Yet it is paralizing at times, and the wierd thing has been is that others have not sensed it in me so they can't tell? Only my Mum can tell. My youngest brother can tell when I get in a bit of a mood which is more of an inability to cope. But most people wont be able to tell this and then it turns into a shutsown and they may see me making an excuse for lying on the floor before I am fully shut down.
Uhmm. Could this "Mood" (Brother calls it that) be some sort of surpressed meltdown? Often happens when plans change. Who knows!
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