usagibryan wrote:
I wasn't visibly excitable as a kid. I would get excited about things in my head but wouldn't express it. I liked getting presents (what kid didn't?) but wouldn't smile even if I liked the gift. Apparently I had subtle tells my mom could detect and would tell my aunt or whoever gave me the gift I liked it. I think maybe I just didn't like the attention.
I didn't like parties and I didn't dance and run around and scream in pure mirth the way other kids did, in fact I hated when other kids did that. I was more of a daydreamer. I didn't like getting dirty or wet either, no beach for me.
Like someone else said, mixed bag for me. In my infant years, I would cry 16-20 hours a day (no exaggeration). As a toddler, I was a push-over; however, I was physically weak and was delayed significantly (29 weeks; 7 months in nICU). This carried on into my early school years, where I was easy-going, but became more talkative (I did not learn to talk or walk until age three). However, some abuse and a series of long hospital stays (in pICU - no parent), caused me to become increasingly violent. I began to realize that I didn't have a voice, and I believe that being violent was the answer, which led to some more terrible things. This carried on into my teenage years. My early adulthood years were depressive, and I was like an invisible man. Now, I am more easy-going, but I talk a lot, and I do enjoy social activities. I am not a conflict avoider, nor am I a seeker. As far as anger goes, I am a long wick attached to a very big bomb, if you know what I mean.
As far as birthdays and parties? What are those? I just spent my birthday in the hospital this year; I was in there from Jan 4 - May 22. I'm back at work now, so I'm happy. There were no parties for me, but a couple of messages. No one has thrown me a surprise party, and they better not

I don't like attention; even if it's for recognition at work. Probably because I don't know how to react.