I think fireworks are pretty but hate the noise. I had my noise-cancelling headphones on for all of last night and still had to cut my dog’s evening walk short because of all the noise (he actually doesn’t seem to mind very much, I keep thinking how he’d be a great dog for, say, a veteran with PTSD who was triggered by noises like fireworks and thunder because he stays calm through those noises (and actually, he is a service dog, just not one who’s been trained to help someone who’s having a panic attack or anything). I sure minded the noise, though.). I thought about looking up some YouTube videos of firework displays last night so I could watch some fireworks without the noise, but I was too anxious because of the noise of fireworks going off here.
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"