No sleep but TONS of energy?

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This past three weeks or so I have not been able to sleep very well at all, this is due to circumstances regarding my housing situation. I am stuck with a dilemma of trying to decide to take a private rental, or try to last it out in my rubbish flat into the colder months (which will be very difficult as the place is not only draughty, damp and cold, it is full of entry points for rodents) in order to try and get a council place which will be cheaper rent and possibly safer for me. I have already had a mouse invasion this year. Besides all that my ex used to live upstairs, and the damage he did to me? I am not even going there in this post. I am worried about the rodents as I also have a dog and do not want her exposed to rodent urine, which can carry all sorts of diseases for other mammals. I also love mice and rats and having to kill them breaks my heart =/

The worst thing so far though was the invasion of flies! It was like that scene from Amityville in here a few days ago.

Anyway, that is not my main reason for posting this.

This dilemma has meant I am not sleeping, hardly any sleep at all now in over a week. However, after about two nights straight of NO sleep at all, I feel like I am revved up on caffeine and ready to go. I've been lifting weights, doing resistance workouts and all sorts, never had SO much energy in all my life. I used to get exhausted and crash when it first started, now I am go go go. It feels like I just cannot burn the energy off. The more sleep I lose, the more active I become. However this is starting to concern me.

I have also developed aura migraines recently, which have prevented me doing things. During the 'aura' bit, I feel like I am having a panic attack, a bit like the time I overdid weed and that gave me a panic attack. Doesn't usually, but it did that time. It's the same feeling even though I do not normally have panic attacks at all, I am quite a stoical, quiet person now who tends to internalise stuff more than panic about it. I can be playing a game or listening to music or programming or whatever it is I do, then once the zigzag pattern starts in my eye, I get a the panic attack symptoms. It feels like the world is ending, but my mind is quite calm, it's bizarre.

For the past 3-4 days (three days straight of no sleep at all) I have been getting dizzy spells, they don't last very long, but I thought I was going to pass out yesterday while washing my dishes heh.

Now this may not worry some but guess what, I am also learning to DRIVE. This is SO important to me, I am learning to drive when I have been told all my life it is likely never going to be an option for me. So I stuck my finger up at those people and found out guess what? I can drive, and I can drive a manual car too! Driving, migraines which effect my eyes and dizzy spells do not go together very well. I am very observant to a hyper degree, specially when driving, nothing gets past me. This is good and my instructor noticed it, we reckon it is a useful facet of my Autism.

This has done more for my self esteem than ANYTHING else in the world I assure you.

I am worried that my physical health is going to fail me, and I am going to lose this one thing I am clinging onto for my future. Once I can drive, I want to look into making some extra money as well. How long until this happens when I am driving? The closest call was a few weeks ago when I got a migraine aura half an hour before a driving lesson. That also came with the 'world ending' panic attack feeling as well even though I was happy and looking forward to my lesson

It stopped just before I got in the car, and the headache wasn't too bad so I managed, but the dizzy spells are concerning. They've started since I stopped sleeping.

I don't want to go to the doctors because I have a history of substance abuse and they just patronise me and say 'we're not giving you any medication', even though I do not want medication and have never even mentioned it. I do not like being judged like that, sorry.

So yeah, that's me right now. I just hope I can carry on driving but if I don't feel safe, I will have to postpone. I lost enough time during lockdown, I want to make up for that now and get my test done once I am ready x

Maybe find a doctor that does not know about your history of substance abuse. Or just go in there and tell them you just want to know the cause and don't want meds.