Trouble with my parents

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My mother works in adult health and social care she won't even read my autism diagnosis she constantly compares me with people she works with saying I don't understand they can't
even speak. Does anybody else find this offensive???
I may be lucky in the respect that my intelligence is not affected.
I think she is in denial
I think it's actually because when I have shared some of my past with the specialist she said that my childhood was quite abusive
She sent me to the shop with an IOU instead of money I knew they wouldn't accept it but she insisted and I trusted her.
She took the p*ss for years after she finds it hilarious does anybody else think that this is cruel.
She taught my sister to call me dirty boy between the ages of one and two instead of calling me Ash this was heartbreaking to be called dirty boy by somebody who you love
I can remember being mocked all the time
For the things I said or the way I thought.
I always felt like I didn't belong to that family.
So she might be right but she says I remember through the eyes of a child and my memory is distorted.

I relate to your story, especially to the part of systematic dismissal and invalidation.
Trying to confront a parent about their past abuse is unlikely to work - there are too many psychological defences and it will likely end up with devaluation and denial going on and on.

You mentioned talking to a specialist about your past. Can you contact her more? First thing you need is seeing the reality for what it is not what your mother tries to make it. A mental health specialist with experience with child abuse survivors can be of great help there.

That does sound very cruel to me. I think the therapist who said you were abused was correct. How old are you now? Are you still dependent on her?

When someone insists that your memory is faulty, that is known as gaslighting, and is regarded as a form of torture.

There always such a power imbalance between even an adult child and their parents

I was gonna say gaslighting as well. It's psychological abuse & manipulation. The abuser gets the victum to doubt themselves so the abuser can continue to get away with their sh!t. There are also some cases where the abuser actually believes their vesron of things even thou that's not what really happened. Those people can sometimes be very dangerous like psychopaths.