Can't understand what I'm feeling and about to destroy!help

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Hey all really need help I'm stimming like crazy and about to destroy someones life but don't know where to put my feelings or even what I'm feeling I'm angry with someone and am about to electronically destroy them for not helping me as they said they would I'm sick of people doing crap to me .. where do I store my feelings and I'm unsure if it's just anger or vindictive as well. So I am waiting before I so it but it's very hard and I think I might be hungry and that could be contributing to my bad/angry feelings. Please help. What do you do when your so frustrated and being ignored and having someone say they'll be back and just lie . The person is a drug addict. I want to destroy his life and I can but what do I do with my feelings and emotions and what do U think I'm feeling? If it was you. What would you do?? Thanks.

Dani.

What kind of help did he not provide you?

He was supposed to come back with something I could sell to get some money as I have none. He obviously just lied to me like everyone where I live does. I help him all the time no hesitation as I'm naturally a caring and giving person and it really hurts my feelings and I'm thinking I might be angry or feeling vindictive about the situation but I'm not how to accurately process what I'm feeling as I'm not really sure if I have space to work it out in my brain I wasted so much energy trying to Ben like these nt people and I'm so upset and drained .. but I feel much better now I'm in my apartment but I hate situations like that.. I'm not sure if its lying to me or just rude and a user who takes and never gives back. My emotions are all over the place I don't know what I'm really accurately feeling.

Glad to hear you’re feeling better. Do you think it would be worth it to tell him how you feel?

This sounds like a job for Al-Anon. We hear more about Alcoholics Anonymous, but there are just as many people going to meetings to get over how the alcoholics have treated them. Addicts should not be trusted to fulfil their promises, because they are not really in control of their own lives. Something in them is missing or so damaged that they can't tolerate being in their right minds. The usual reaction, if one is not too entangled, is to ban them, like a bar where they have caused trouble will.

I was going to advise against ever trusting drug addicts but I see Dear_one did it even better than I would have.

I think finally someone has explained this in such a way that it finally makes sense. Your explaination answers everything. Why they use me, disrespect me and as such I want nothing to do with them anymore as even the point of trying to imply on me to aid them in assisting with their want or expecting me through befriending me to use their id to steal their phone accounts. Yesterday being a prime example. But thing I can't understand is why don't I (being seen as an addict probably by many) even hard drugs I never lost my morals and only commited the crimes I did except one ( where my ex wife was sleeping with my neighbor and rubbed in my face how great she was in bed and that I couldn't see my kids and how much fun they all had together knowing I couldn't see them so I stole a can of something to go set him on firee, though I was arrested for theft with violence because it was flammable item before I made it back right after he said this to me) and for stealing food because I was homeless for years and a bit of alcohol here and their just to cope.. I never even through my addiction phase I never lost my morals or would ever treat others how they treat me and many still do. My life only seems on repeat because others make it so, they try every angle possible to manipulate me into the same scenarios for their own gain largely due to this gangstalking bs. Unfortunately I don't use enough substance to justify the times the scenarios occur , more importantly they wait until I take something in this substance field before they go to extravagant lengths to make it appear as if I'm going crazy. Very weird. Personally I'm over trying to take my life over their crap and my family is pretty much to blame. Talk about no love let alone these crappy people who try befriend me. I'm very upset over someone yesterday and it's cause I'm too much. Should have just stuck to my decision to just not get close to anyone knowing that I'm obviously a sucker for manipulation and games of others. I'm just their pawn. But I'll put a new post up about my stupidity in the ASD love section if u wanna read. Point in case everyone hates me they lie to befriend me and they do everything and anything to manipulate me. 3 days ago I took an overdose on ssri medication to escape this cruel world and life that it's become. Failed and planning on my next time in epic fashion.

^^ How far addicts fall morally may depend on their genetic balance of greed vs cooperation, and on their degree of abuse as children.
It is not uncommon for people involved with addicts (sometimes called co-dependent) to ignore all the warning signs and get into a series of similar troubles, even with friends pointing out the problems. This is partly due to familiarity with abuse and no experience with healthy relationships, but also due to a stubborn desire to have the abuse turn out differently - the sunk-costs fallacy.

Although at the time, it is often hard to think clearly.
Clouded or destructive thoughts are what often drives us to act in bad ways.

Please remember all actions cause a reaction and that what may feel like a righteous retaliation may result in further complex consequences for you.

If the person is a drug addict, they need help. not police or to be put in prison, but help with their addiction and in many cases their criminal behaviour.

I know more than most about this as my own brother was a drug dealer and died of a drug overdose. Sadly.
And as much as idiot my older brother was to me, i still love him and miss him.

So... please be conscious of the vulnerable nature that your offensive friend may be in, even if he / she does not appear to be in. To be honest, if someone is an active user of various drugs or a habitual user of alcohol, then they are in a worse place than even us ASD people. They are on the slippery slopes downward to a quick death. And although they may treat us like crap, you got to realise that they are ill themselves.

This does not excuse them for their bad doings but does put their actions into perspective.
In many ways we should be sorry for such people, as they are driven by dark sources such as drug and alcohol addition.

Try and let yourself some time to contemplate the matter and work out a solution without acting rashly.
I know, a hard task for someone with ASD, who have a much bigger emotional response than most.

This is your challenge i guess. I believe that us ASD people in many ways have bigger challenges than most. due to the way we experience the world.

And from our actions we take our part in creating the world around us and our own destiny. Good Luck Danosurus.

I had never thought to look at it that way. That is so so very true!! !

Thanks for your reply.. it's given me I guess a different way to add up my conclusive evidence and opptions prior to making an irrational decision based out of rage or anger or cause I'm continually hurt

Even if he weren't an addict, this is not a war worth fighting. People are dicks. If you truly don't know where your next meal is coming from, is there somewhere you can get help? Focus on taking care of your own needs before getting revenge on some other poor bastard.