1)...The Question?
NonE I CaN ThInK of! Any suggestions for a
question that should go Here?
2)...Statements by Ghosthunter!
Fort Wayne and Starbucks, Borders,
and Wifi options wrote:
I am currently trying to pirate someones
wifi account. I am at the only locally postitioned
Starbuck near the motel.
As you folks know by now, I have no real interest
to walk to Borders. The same applies to Old Town.
There are reported 3 options for wifi other than a
few motels!
a)...There is a weak connection near starbuck on lima
Blvd? near Washington blvd. I have spent from 1pm
to 3pm being able to get a 1/2 bar to 1 bar signal
with annoying results.
This Starbucks doesn't have wifi, so I am using
diversionary tactics to seek out weaker(1) signals.
I spent from 1pm to 5pm with very bad results,
and some successes! 10% worth. Blah! I don't
plan to go there again! Bah! Humbug!
b)...There is another place near the Walmart on
Washington and Coldwater mall. This is 1 mile from
the motel. You go 1/2 a mile to the freeway,
and brave dirt and gravel that can cause blisters
on your feet. Hmmmmm? All this for wifi?
The place will be reviewed with more detail tommorow.
And being that I think better with people around me!
not in a enclosed tomb like one's room I can make a
better evaluation.
c)...Border's is wifi'd. I went there on Friday.
It is a average strip mall size. It is like the
one in Reno and in a much cleaner envirement.
The intellectual quality of Fort Wayne greatly
improve as you ebb away in great distances
from dinosaurville called downtown.
Ghosthunter at it's worst! wrote:
I am my own worst enemy when the following
things occur!
a)...I am requested to repeat myself(I am not a chewtoy)
b)...When I am trapped within miles of freeway with
no social-energy options. I may not desire, or desire
to socialize, but it is the energies(intellectual and
social quality) that make a place).
For example....Poor IlikeDragons. She got the worst
of my venting and de-venomizing humour. It was
not what she did, but on a Sunday Fort Wayne, isolated
as it may be, is worse on a Sunday. I would eventually
go to Ihop(24 hour restraunt) near the motel and
find intellectual stimulation, and flow.
I am deeply sorry that you had to bear the brunt
of my annoyances, and please forgive me.
3)...Being ignored is worse than being entombed
in a room. I need external energies to inspire my
vicious, considerate, expressive juices or I get
consumed by my own Autistic fire. This is why
I say autistic energy in my part makes great sex
for the partner. The silence fire the flames of
expression and intensity.
pyraxis and relationship potential? wrote:
She has a quiet flame, and if we had kids(not likely)
but if, one would have artist-autistic fire and one
would be a horrible beast that I may have been
at the 6-13 age group. Autistic fire, as I said
bring firey genetics and firey children of silence
and expression( her-unlikely daughter, and my
unlikely-son that would of(not likely) come from
fires flame and silences roses of expression.
She is not too tall and exhudes not "I am here
energy" but I will stare at this wall and not
say much energy in one way, her fire is in
her art and that is her greatest gift.
She wears glasses and is brown haired(short hair)
and skinny like me. Hmmmmmm? why is it
most of the people I have encountered in the AS-HFA
spectrums skinnier than the average NT.
magic and Axelkat The difference between ! wrote:
magic exhudes a "I am here, but don't have anything
to say AS quality". I can understand his thinking AS.
AxelKat is a wild creature like myself, sedated due
to meds? or ??unknowns and well looked after.
I want to say HFA? but his limited expression is
only matched by magics "I am here" quality.
The difference is that magic perhaps didn't
make unwise-reactive decisions that lead
to a more sedated path.
Hmmmmm?
Hilary and Pyraxis comparisons wrote:
Hilary contains fire with lessened expression than
I. That is saying alot. I growl, snarl, joke(I try!
Sorry-Ilikedragons), Crash, analyse, dissect all in
the same thought. This is a worse case scenerio.
Then you have Hilary, a quieter(HFA version)
of me. It hurt me more when a "hilary type"
tells me I can overwhelm than a AS'r.
Pyraxis is Autistic. She doesn't exude expressive
outward energies but fires the flames of creativity
in words. She is touch, sexually, and hug sensitive.
(Sorry, Pyraxis! I am just trying to explain you!)
She reminds me of my first girlfriend(Tammy Nelson)
and how she exhibited quiet autistic(I didn't say AS)
qualities. She is the windy day and
I am the firey tongue!
My first girlfriend, the one I had sex with in the upper
loft during a kong fu film, felt intruded upon in sexual
intercourse, touch and feel. Her motherly instincts
weren't there. Almost like my mother(her motherly
instincts didn't exist, and probly PDD-NOS in one way
or another, but I will never find out, I am just a ghost
of a memory to her! Even at deaths door).
This is too illustrate that I have seen 4 varieties of
mixtures associated with Autistic traits. All not the
same.
Ghosthunter further explained wrote:
I am of fire and silence. Silent and dark mother moon,
Bless her be! Radiant sun and truth revealing father skye,
Bless he be! I am child golden of darkeness(deep and
cunning silence of the internal energies) and light(revealer
of my own and others inner truth).
Ghosthunter and Here is a poem of thought! wrote:
with this pen I pierce the darkness(ones silence) with
light(truth).
with this pen I pierce the light(truth) with darkness
(their true inner silence revealed.
Bless be spiritual father for this child golden, piercer
of inner truths!
Bless be mother moon for this child golden, piercer
of outer secrets the darkness we all have!
Bless be you guidance and wisdom as I pierce the
truth with this pen and reveal one's inner truth in
all things spirit, self, I-Physic(physical) well being'd
and neccessary to allow fluency in growth in my
self and others.
Bless it be, Bless it be, Bless it be!
Hmmmmmm? Now if I could just find a relationship
so this fire can inspire deeper than words and pen!
Hmmmmmm?
Bless be my educational, fiscal and phyisical successes.
As I strive to go forward in life's journey and not be
the helpless creature I was, but the poignant and
effective one that I strive to be! Bless be mother
godess and father sky for this being "I" of golden,
made of darkeness and light, and may this fire find
success and connection!
3)...1)...The Question Repeated!
NonE I CaN ThInK of! Any suggestions for a
question that should go Here?
12 Jul 2005, 5:34 pm
) 'raucous parties' and pretty much end up being a fly on the wall, sipping my beer and enjoying the music. I'm sometimes worried that he'll get the impression that he feels used (since I rarely, if ever, reciprocate) and/or pressure me into things I'm not entirely comfortable with, but sometimes it is a lot better than being in my room/house by myself.... and other times being alone is what I desperately need which is another thing that somewhat bothers me, when I'm trying to enjoy some alone time and said friend IMs me saying 'sup?' NOTHING IS UP, I JUST TALKED TO YOU 20 MINUTES AGO!! !! I feel slightly guilty when I just pretend I'm away and don't respond, but theres only so much I have to talk about with him
