Earthbound_Alien wrote:
everyone talking in a room at once, background noise added in....hurts my body....painful
Not sure how to describe it as to me it is not the same as pain but is a thing I want to get out of there and I want it to stop. Was torture in school. Lots of people talking in a hall or a room. Halls were worse for me because of the echoes that came on top of it. All I could do was put my hands over my ears as hard as I could to avoid the noise and wait. Was one of the few times I would ever rock back and fore to try to comfort myself as I never usually did that. Is worst then when someone tries to talk to me when I am trying to endure that enviroment. I would usually lie and say I had a headache because I did not know how to describe it. Was not pain but was "TOO MUCH AMPLIFIED". I don't know what to call it. Is... too much? "NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE BY ANY MEANS" sort of feeling. If I am not allowed out, PANIC! Not sure how to describe it.
Soon learned in school that if it was raining I would hide somewhere outside in the rain and keep a lookout for patrolling teachers whos job it was to send me to the hall so I did not get wet. I would end up soaked through but I would rather spend half the day soaking wet then endure the hall, so I would (Due to the design of the school) hide but keep a lookout and keep re-locating my hiding place if I saw a distant teacher. Anything to avoid the hall when the kids got noisy and excited!
School assemblies were usually ok as there was no talking and when there was singing, everyone was singing the same things so it was not too bad. It was when there were lots and lots of voices all saying different things at the same time... The "Din" of lots of talking voices... Or worse still the "Lots of excited children all making noise!"
For some reason outside was not really an issue. In the hall and the echoey noises put me in a "Claustrophobic panic". I think that describes it the best. The sort of panic I had when playing rugby and having the scrum pile on top of me and in the panic, though I was at the time the shortest kid in the class and skinny with it, I would in my panic lift the whole scrum. I hated playing rugby because of it due to the claustrophobic moments it has while playing.
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