Yes, or if not embarrassed I get socially anxious and feel I have to mask. Strangers are more overwhelming to me and because they don't know what's going on in my head they'll only see what's on the outside and are quick to judge and be callous if you're showing any sort of body language that they don't like, and I wish they'd just ignore me unless I'm doing something really obvious like yelling and screaming or something, but I don't do that. I just walk and stand like any other normal person, look presentable and not dress out of the ordinary, and just look ahead like I don't care. Sometimes I can't help but catch someone staring though, and this is what gives me anxiety. I wish, so much, that more people were aware of social anxiety and understood that if someone is looking a bit shy or overwhelmed it is best not to stare because they may be suffering with anxious thoughts. And no, they don't stare because they think an anxious person might suddenly pull out a knife from their pocket and start slicing everyone to death, because usually murderers are men (not being sexist, statistics show that men are much more likely to be serial killers than women, if a woman is a killer she's usually involved in a murder with a murderous man, I don't think there has ever been many women that have just gone out on a killing spree on their own stabbing or shooting random people in the street), and usually a serial killer looks shifty, like they're hunting down a victim. I don't look like that, in fact I look the opposite. If I did look like a potential murderer then people wouldn't let their kids go near me, and people are always letting themselves or their kids invade my space without fearing me, so that just tells you that I don't look like a dangerous threat. They just look at me because they're judgemental and think that being out in public is all about competition or something.
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07 Jul 2022, 5:45 pm
