The other day I started to become suspicious of been slightly autistic after reading an article and I`ve kept reading... from Frontiers and Researchgate to children books, to Temple Grandin´s books, to youtube videos, in three languages and I think I will be buying some clinical books, because I cannot let go of wanting to know more.
I did different vocabulary tests in my mother language and two additional ones, the Autism Quocient 28 and 50, RAADS-R, CAT-Q, I´ve minusciously written stuff of my own life that was/is useful, I´ve analysed my drawings and paintings and how I communicate and my hearing sensitivities, the social draining component and how I live :no family or friends nearby, happily homesteading in a remote place, no social media, my weird interests, not being able to learn to drive a car, only sparingly cycling in the countryside.
I believe my mother thought me how to be very correct and do things to fit, in a very strenuous manner, since I was young. I think I just learned to fit, and I contemplate the idea that some of my health issues come from stress: the stress from forcing myself to do things that other people just do but that to me are herculean/draining tasks.
Sorry for my long writting.
I´m almost 40 years old. Does it make sense for me to pay for an assessment?
Thank you in advance.