Scare of doctor visit

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Well like i said in my blog, I got an appointment for monday at 8:30 am at the CMS Mental Health department for an assesment. It is the first time I have managed to set spmething up to start the path of getting a diagnosis. And well, I am scared as hell. I know I am an aspie. and when I found out about Asperger's and how I fit into it, it answered so many questions and painful moments in my life it was a relif, you know? But now I am terrebly scared.

I do not know what to do or say when the moment comes to give them the best possible amount of information and how to get the best of the appointment and im obsessing with the idea that it will go very badly and they will shoo me off saying there is nothing wrong with me or telling me to grow up, ect.

I am horrified with the idea that they wont see the aspie, or that they will try to commit me on some baseles sgarbage. (one of my deep fears is getting comitted. I hate hospitals in general and the fact that i am a severe asthmatic allows me more doctor visistrs and er visits than I would like as it is).

Any suggestions? About how to present this data to a doctor? How to make sure said doctor is not going to be biased? Im scared as hell of that, too. I tend to think very suspiciously of most strangers whom seem to have a deciding factor on my life, even if the impact is minimal, and in this case i am sure teh impact is anything but minimal.

I am scared and frustrated and all at the same time I want to go through with this. I need to go through with this. But my concern with being able to give the doctor all the data he/she needs so they can diagnose me, it is vital to me, and I have no idea how to approach teh situation because I tend to mute-up with strangers and such.

Extremely unlikely if your in the US that even if you should be put into a rubber room that it will happen. Most mentally disturbed enough people who are in confinement are in jails not hospitals and they are in jail for breaking a law not because you can confine a person for just being crazy.

It sounds like you're expecting some tremendously permanent result from the appointment - and that would be scary, I agree. But it's more likely that the appointment will be a way-station on the path of your life. Nothing gets stuck forever. No matter what happens, you'll be planning the rest of your life on Tuesday. If that includes looking for another diagnosis, you'll be able to go ahead with that. As to getting committed, I think that if you haven't involved the police in your life lately, then don't worry about it. It's not like they have spare beds or anything.

I know how you feel, Tempy, I realized recently that I'll still be planning my life no matter what diagnosis they give me where I am right now and I can try for others in the future; nothing is stopping me. I also thought I might be committed when I first went for my first time, and I was so severely depresed he even told me that if the meds didn't work he might have to find a hospital bed for me... but he tried the meds first, and at a low dose at that... you'd need to be VERY severe to be committed involuntarily, most people committed for depression are in voluntarily and you're not even that depressed... or are you? I've read a LOT on this board about mental hospitalss... MANY people here have been in them... like in the "Have you ever been committed to a mental ward?" thread in here and the "Hospitalization" poll in the Adult Asperger Issues forum. Those are great references to help ease your nerves.