Lightning88 wrote:
If they hadn't asked so many social questions, I'd probably have a higher score. I'm probably one of the very few on here that loves to be around people!
I actually started forcing myself to become more social when I was fairly young. It was a semi-conscious or possibly evolving decision on my part... so for some of the questions I put down what I think my natural inclination would have been if it weren't for the fact that I've consciously forced myself to be another way for a couple of decades. The question of "would you prefer to to to the library or a party" is a really good example of this. Today I would probably rationalize "there are more opportunities to make friends at the party and the library will still be there afterward" (in spite of or maybe even because of the fact that making friends is difficult for me) and gone to the party because I realize in a very practical sense that my lack of friends has been very problematic for me over the years (especially in the past month). But my natural inclination is that I never really liked parties -- they're so often loud and obnoxious (difficult to tolerate) and the library generally seems so much more pleasant as an opportunity to either escape into sci-fi or learn something (which I love doing). So while I might rationalize going to the party and go to the party every time those options are given to me, on the test I put that I'd definitely go to the library.
Though I do actually enjoy being around people I know and trust who're not being loud and obnoxious, Tiff has always complained of not getting enough time with me (we've been together 7 years). I used to think it was just because I had become a workaholic in an effort to try and fix the problem I've had with child support (something that's been beyond my control and totally ruined my life), though in the past couple months as I've been researching autism, I'm beginning to think there's more to it than that. So likely my natural inclination is to not spend so much time around people in spite of my desire to have a larger, intentional family.