earthdweller wrote:
You are one of those aspi people that are more aware of things. Its an interesting quality.
But I sometimes didn't want to feel alone if I precieved the same thing. In religion and spirituality, this awareness of the universe is put into perspective although it is interpreted or distorted for the purpose of religion.
It is amazing though because you are sensing that most people go about their lives without ever stopping to think of the way things really are.
We("we" as in who are concious of the world and people) define who we are, however. Its a "special" innate capacity. And there's always time to probe more into this awareness. But many times it just makes my life feel empty.
I have had this since I was a child really. I remember pondering death when I was about 7 and what comes after etc...what happens. I just get these moments where I seem to stretch beyond what my eyes see in front of me and see everything just laid out and the vastness of it all leaves me feeling very... disillusioned, to be honest. People don't stop to think. I watch them, and although, of course, some must surely stop and consider all of this, most seem to just be content to get up, go to work, eat, sleep, have their club/pub/bingo outings etc etc etc.
Is that all we are? Here it would seem so. One day, I was stood in a line at a store, watching the till being opened and the money and that resulted in me thinking about how worthless money really is... I mean, the whole system just seems to strange to me. We get money, we buy things, we give money back etc etc... and in the end, if all this money were evenly distributed among the world's population... a bit idealistic, I suppose.