Unfulfilled obsession

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Have any of you been through a stage where, at some point you have been in a situation where you cannot do anything for you obsession. My obsession has been for quite some time computers, however I can only use a computer regularly at school. At home there is only one computer and my dad removed my admin privilages to stop me from doing the things I enjoy. I'm ina situation where I can do something that will, in the long run, do some benefit. For instance, installing Firefox. At school I'm given a bit more trust (I'm friendly with the IT manager) and they let me do jobs for them and things but at home I don't have my own computer and because of this I feel so...limited. Have any of you been in a situation like this before.

Yes!. I have been trying to get employed to help fuel my interests. My amazon wishlist is a mile long due to all the political, criminal theory, classics, exc books that I can't find in any library in my state. Then don't get me started on all the PC games I have been dying to play. And music I have been wanting to listen to. It can be very very frustrating. I have been substituting my obsessions or trying to by spending a lot of time online. Typing has become a type of stemming for me and insomnia has become a regular occurence.

Yeah I never seem to fulfill my obsessions... although music is the most likely and goddammit I'm gonna be good at it. I don't know how big but who cares? Success in terms of money is a distant second.

WOW, I wish *I* was still so steadfast there! DON'T lose that!

I had this problem too.

My mother wanted a 'normal' child so would prevent me from following my obsessions / interests. Even things like music when I wanted to practise (which many parents struggle to get their children to do!) I wasn't allowed, or if I was trying to read, whatever the book, I would be prevented from doing this.
It frustrates me because I never got a chance to see how far I could go and see if I had any potential or ability in these areas.

I am trying to put things right now, but it is difficult because I'm an adult and have to work, leaving limited time for interests. Also there is lack of money, managing my other health issues.....but I guess all I can do is try.

That's evil bullsh!t on the part of your parents.

As for me, I could usually do the things I was obsessed with as a child, but my mother would always make sure to make lots of comments about it, usually focusing on how unusual it was for someone of my age to be playing with legos or something like that.

For a while I was obsessed with K'nex. I always asked for more every Christmas and never got more. The one success I did have was getting the Big Ball Factory. But man oh man, if I'd had more, I could have built anything. I mean it. I was that good. With what I did have, I built a chair that held up my weight as a 5th grader and still does to this day! I'm 23 btw.

I'm not legally allowed in my country to fulfil my obsession (collecting nonfiring guns) due to my Aspergers. I know how it feels to never be able to fulfil one.

I was in the computer situation! A while ago at high school, and my parents tried to stop me. I went out and bought a computer so they couldn't take it off me, although, my master obviously ignores that fact, he's ripped powercords (and power sockets) out of the walls to get me off it.

What a horrible thing to happen to you, girl7000! My parents encouraged my interests, although they warned me to keep a broad knowledge base and not stick on any one thing. That is far different from the complete deprivation you suffered.