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Why am i so adnormal. Several psychiatrists say they think i have AS, but i dont see it. I have an assessment soon, I think ill prove my point that I dont have it, but i'm keen to find out what i do have if anything.

The last psychiatrist did ask me questions i could not answer, and he just smiled and said people with AS usually can't

I have no friends, I just dont get on with anyone, people irritate me there decisions seem illogical to me, and it annoys me and I have to bite my tongue constantly.

I suppose I joined to if there are other with same issues.

You're not alone. If you hang out and post a lot, you're sure to make friends here.

And don't worry about being diagnosed with Asperger's. It's just something to describe who you are.

Thanks for the response, im usually the one thats "different in online communities.

I feel out of place even here, though, from what i have read you all seem pretty socialable damn it.

Yep, we can even spoil a bad day.

We are strange and easy to get along with.

Internet social carries over, you will be able to talk to people, you just won't want to.

Post your age, and say you are studly and so misunderstood, the girls will do the rest.

So what are your hobbies, obsessions, can you draw, what might anyone have in common with you?

Give me something to work with here.

I kind of get interested in things then get bored, latest thing is I bought a motorbike, but i have just lost interest again, knew i would but im determinded to pass my test at least.

I enjoy learning, as its something new all the time, if that makes sense? Studying for a degree in ICT.

I understand everything you've said here, daniel. Hang in and you'll meet people here that are very interesting and share many of your feelings. When I get down I come here, not to post as often as to read. I have gotten so happy just reading lots of other people who share the same feelings I have. It's very empowering to realize you are not alone.

What questions did your last psychiatrist ask you that you could not answer?

As far as being an Aspie - I like to think of it as everyone I lay eyes on could be diagnosed with something. They all have quirks, all degrees of things wrong with or different about them. Every one does. If I had my choice of syndromes I would pick AS in a heartbeat. There are so many positives that come with it.

I can't remeber all the questions, but the subject of kids came up. He asked me "Why do you think people have them" very long pause, hell i couldn't think why.

I dont like the idea my condition being generalised as one think, i think it is far more complex then that. My personal diagnosis is im loseless and should be shot

You're loseless?

I'm trying to track with you here but I lost you on that one - is it a typo?

You definitely should NOT be shot. They don't even shoot horses much these days. You are much too valuable to think badly about yourself. All life is precious.

I wish i was a horse so much easier.

I'm only socialable online. It's hard in real life for me to talk to people, but it's easier online because I'm not actually talking to people, just posting messages. Make sense?

Yes i know what you mean, it is easier here.

Does anyone have sort of multiple personalities, what i mean is your persoanility different for each person you know?

I never like to be with more than one person at a time. So when two people i know meet with me unplanned i freak out!

I get that. Very disconcerting, can feel very uncomfortable.
As if I've discovered how it works with person A, and it's being like this "a", and that with someone else B, the way to act with them is "b", so if accidentally end up being with both at same time is VERY difficult. Usually what happens is that one of them is surprised, prob unpleasantly, by how different I am.
This kind of collision has happened often enough that I have increasingly restricted myself to pure "functional" behaviour, the minimum necessary for communication, especially since becoming a mother. The mothering-head doesn't allow so much for that kind of "personalised" adaptation to company, not if with child anyway. Though have still done it. So many people just seem to prefer a nice childlike respectful happy mother to a raging sceptical one, so i just seem to become that. (my range is limited though; can't do the kind of confident careless laughing mother !)
I hate how it creeps up on me, especially in new company one-to-one ( or to couple if it's a couple very "together"!), to unconsciously take on the personality style which works with the person/couple. As if i find it difficult to "be" anything which doesn't please the person,( and why i hardly go out anymore; i hate the way it takes me over so much). Except when know them well like father of son, and my family, who have seen the screaming fury, the SPD,OCD,ASD, etc.
Sounds a bit like remnants of the narcissistic personality that got smashed up when i was 29 in breakdown, exposing my AS to view suddenly. Or....
It's like I never learned how to "do" a social persona somewhere between the "perfect response" to someone, tailored to fit that persons needs ( one at a time, OR to a group the whole group at once , in which no individual is really seen), and the "anti-social", totally "straight'/bare/direct me which my family sees. So anything in between is a real strain, when can't just slide into the echoing/reflecting/perfect response to a person stuff, but have to be out in public, then i struggle to find the tone, the way to be.
It's all or nothing.
So yes, get this awful thing with two people at same time, if i've been tailoring super individual suits for each, full of detail, which don't go together!!.
And when i don't "do" that then yes i find most people irritating and stupid, and have to practically stop talking because everything i want to say contradicts all their usual blah blah

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I used to daydream/fantasise about being one. A wild one. And practise stepping through the grass leaving no trace when was 8-11. Much simpler life!
About interests/courses/activities started and stopped ; outside of the perennials of reading, doodling faces, watching films and for some reason an interest in nutrition since aged 14 ( with dormant period from 19-29), almost every other course or new activity that I've started I dropped/lost interest in/sabotaged or generally "lost" within 6 months. This pisses me off immensely too.
There was a thread about executive dysfunction recently which looked at how people with AS suffer from absence or damage to the usual cognitive functions for regulating projects particularly space and time aspects. I'm ok if anal on spatial issues but time , aaarrghhhhh! It's on page 2/3 I think now, on General Discussion, here in fact:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt48669.htm

and the linked article is at:
http://bsnpta.org/geeklog/public_html// ... c_Overview

You should have asked him if he was ever told the story about "the birds and the bees."

Now on a more serious note:


It's possible other people might think I have multiple personalities if they were observe the variety of ways I interact with others. I remain consistent with the same person (if he doesn't change), but I'm different between each person I'm with. I adjust myself accordingly to the person in front of me. If he is gentle and sensitive, then so am I. If he is blunt and tough, so am I. To me, it's simply speaking in the same language the other person is talking in.

You are not useless.

I laughed when i read that question, because I had never thought about it either, and I dont have the faintest idea why people have kids. They want them? But that wouldnt be the answer that was desired.

While that doctor seems to take joy at pigeon holing people, labeling them, a diagnosis of AS means you get to be part of a group of people that is more broad in ability and personality than the general population. The inside joke is on that doctor because he cannot see past his narrow idea of what people are!

The very fact that you feel different than the people here is because you really are! Rejoice in that, but also the fact that you can talk with and understand the people here! Please be welcome at Wrong Planet!Unlike many people, we love to meet people who are different.

I am pleased that you have come, and I am sure that you will enrich us with your presence.