Aridarr wrote:
I am already dead.
I've thought that I was dead more than once in my life too, was very sure of it; I was wrong; I've mistaken numbness from the result of serious damage as death, the death of my spirit. But a small ember of life has always remained; and in time, I've learned how to fan that ember back into a flame of life. In fact, someone else inadvertently showed me how to do that, and though the end result was me being burned, the lessons learned were valuable and so I cherish them.
Fanning an ember of life back to a fire is not an easy thing to do, but it is possible. It is not a painless thing to do, for pain is one thing cloaked by numbness; but so too are other feelings. And I do not think pain is necessarily a bad thing; as others before me have said, pain is how you know you're still alive.
With endearing respect, I hope you are wrong something like I was. But I suppose we shall see.
Good fortune,
- Icarus talks to ghosts...
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Please forgive me if, in the heat of battle, I sometimes forget which side I'm on.