Where to begin???! !! *sigh*
I sat with the man for nearly 2 hours, he read my eight pages worth and proceeded to ask me nine million family history questions. He asked me bits and pieces about my childhood, about my special interests, about my work, about my family and then gave me a brief recap of what he had heard, to which all sounded fairly accurate. At the end, he said that while he thought that there were some Asperger's traits, he felt they were in a mild form which he didn't believe would warrant a dx. Instead, he thought it would be best if I sought psycho-therapy to deal with my past. He said that because I could make eye contact, but did not always was a conflict to a dx. He said that the fact that my interests were fleeting and would diminish just as quickly and intensely as they arrived and were not computers, math, etc that it contradicted the usual AS traits. He said that because I am an affectionate loving caring mom, that it was "selective" in how I dealt with the rest of the world. He said because I made a conscious decision to educate myself in social work, that I could not possibly be that bad socially, despite the information I fed him about my difficulties at work.
Nevermind all the rest. Ignored my childhood details that read stuff like:
"“shy, quiet, sensitive, serious, anti-social,” little girl. I preferred adult company and did not make any huge efforts to “fit in” with my peers. I was known to cry a lot at school and made frequent calls home. I enjoyed reading on my recess breaks, I preferred to work alone than in groups and whenever possible, I dodged presentations, gym class, drama and speaking aloud in front of the class., as this caused great anxiety for me. I focused nearly all of my attention on my interests and areas that I excelled in, such as spelling (because I had such an excellent memory) and art of any form. I was thought to be observant and according to others I always appeared to be “deep in thought”. I hated my hair being brushed. I would refuse to allow my mother to bake certain foods, as they made me feel ill and I enjoyed soft, cuddly textures."
Ignored the fact that:
I avoid eye contact (as he said I made eye contact with him several times...)
Special interests (that are clearly not "characteristic enough"~for a male ASD maybe!! !)
That I have a high degree of morality
That I have meltdowns (but because they are NOT related to being an ANGRY person, and more to overstimulation, frustration, etc they did not qualify)
The fact that I punched walls, have banged my head, seared my skin and am a compulsive picker
The fact that I have few friends and each of them have a social dysfunction of some sort
The fact that I have a need for bizarre and random social disconnections and will isolate myself from everyone I know for months and sometimes years
The fact that I boycott answering the telephone, refuse to answer the door to unwanted visitors and hold people from entering if I get caught off guard
The fact that I boycott any or all celebrations, social outtings or events in my honour refusing baby showers, special birthday celebrations and work lunches ,etc
The fact that I hate to be the center of attention
The fact that I have some sensory and motor control issues, ie: Tactile processing, oral processing, motor planning, auditory processing and often become overstimulated, sombie-like and shut down or overheated, annoyed and meltdown as a result.
The fact that I am often accused of not caring what others think or feel. People think I am insensitive, bold, rude, not very politically correct, etc
That I struggle with social appropriateness such as censorship and boundaries.I tell everyone, everything and have little regard for how people will recieve what I am saying
That I have difficulty reading peoples emotions, body language, etc
That I perseverate
That my daughter, my brother and mother all have similar traits and at least one of them has been formally dx'd with AS.
*sigh*
Not even so much as the Asperger's screening Tests. Just family, history etc!
I gave hime a list of examples of different circumstances/situations where all of these would be applicable and still....nothing. Actually, something, his exact words were "you are screwed up"
I am so bloody frustrated and if I got started on the insane school staff I would be here all day!! !!
I need an advil. Thoughts anyone?
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