Aspies Who Come Into the Criminal Justice System

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I committed very evil things when I was 4(?) - 15 years old, especially after my 15th birthday and before my 16th birthday. From being about 5 - 6 years old to above 15,5 years old I was bullied/mobbed by quite many people, usually from schools. My "psychopathic" tendencies (practically) vanished after Catholic sacrament of confirmation when I finished Polish gimnazjum school in VI 2007 (I was above 15,5 years old then). I rejected sexuality and later was not mobbed by peers in my school classes or studies. Before the sacrament of confirmation, I was backwarded morally, religiously and had no psychiatric care. I received first contact with psychiatrists about my 17th birthday. I think that I have (or had) something called heboidophrenia, at least in childhood and earlier adolescence. Heboidophrenia can be assumed as a mental illness which is a mild form of disorganised schizophrenia (hebephrenia) which occurs (usually?) among children and adolescents and is something between (more "classical"?) schizophrenia and dissocial personality and is associated with antisocial and ever criminal behavior.

I definitely do not want to be punished for evil deeds from my young years (before 16th birtday), especially after death, but also on Earth (for example by being punished by court). I did many horrible things above 13 years ago (now I am above 28,5 years old). In 2008 (October) I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome (a pervasive developmental disorder) in specialistic centre, in similar time I was also diagnosed with OCD and started getting meds. In 2015 I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder from ICD-10 (mostly along with Asperger's) and in some part of 2016 I had diagnosis of schizophrenia, unspecified or paranoid. In IV 2016 I got MMPI-2 test which suggested that I have schizophrenia so severe that I should be in psychiatric belts or rather have antisocial personality disorder (with some other personality disorders: histrionic, narcissistic, passive-aggressive, obsessive-compulsive), but in 2019 I got next MMPI-2 test and it suggested personality similar to schizoid-schizotypal-avoidant and obsessive-compulsive and the least represented traits of personality disorders in my results were associated with dissocial PD. These MMPI-2 tests were made on day hospital (Polish: oddział dzienny), after finishing therapy on it (which lasted about 12 weeks or 60 work days) I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder, Asperger's and mixed OCD. I have never had official diagnosis of a specific personality disorder from ICD-10 (F60.x), schizotypal disorder in ICD-10 is located among mental illnesses in that classification, its entry (F21) is located between schizophrenia (F20) and persistent delusional disorder (F22).

I would say that my family is dysfunctional and even somewhat pathological. Parents use vulgarisms and invectives or practice (especially mental) violence quite often, especially towards their children (who are now adults). My siblings are younger than me and they appear to not believe in God and life after death, they also use vulgarisms or rude language quite eagerly. When I was an adult, the brother once used quite large physical violence towards me because I criticised erotic images in his room. My sister two times made quite large and dangerous physical harm to her mother when she was below 18 years old (probably about 14 and 16 years old, I may not remember how old she was old during it precisely), but the mother before these incident also behaved really badly (vulgar, aggressive, at least mentally) towards her daughter. But my misbehaviors from the period before finishing gimnazjum school, getting the sacrament of confirmation and having 16th birtday were even more "psychopathic"... They might result in tragedy or serious harm, at least mental harm. I regret a lot because of it. After my stupid deeds I developed something like religious OCD, I was at general confessions about 18 times in my life after my 16th birthday, it (having general confessions which ofter were long) started in VI 2008.