Aye, I be a miserable alcoholic

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At age 15 I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome. I'm not ashamed of it nor am I proud of it. Around about that time my life started declining in equality, ya know? Whoops that was a slip o' the tongue, I mean quality though in fact that makes more sense maybe hahaha. I'm a bright guy. I like to think of myself as a philosopher who philosophies and receives his salary in Incapacity Benefit and Disability Living Allowance. Nowadays I'm 21.

I feel terrible lately. I'm in Manchester in England you know but I move about a bit like. I don't belong in today's world. I believe in love and peace and all that. Now alright I'm being judgmental but I judge this world lately of being full of puritanism, greed, hypocrisy and hatred. I've got a good heart and I drink a lot of red wine. I'm addicted, an alcoholic. But I'll only drink Fair Trade red wine because I believe even in my inevitale alcoholic decline I must never lost sight of my principles: to help the disencfranchised and to always be working towards a goal to make life on earth more bearable.

So please, someone, let me know you're out there and I'm not alone in the way I am. I've been to an Asperger's society in a city and I couldn't stand the place. Ya know, they were all playing video games and I couldn't talk to 'em properly, I'm just not sure I get along with many people though as I say I've a heart of gold like. I like old films. Like music - all sorts. Wish I could play the piano or the guitar I've tried both like. I like books by Joseph Heller, J. D. Salinger, Jean-Paul Sartre. I'm a big fan of Will Self too. I write my own stories and poems about people on the fringes o' society. I know lots about madness because I've been in psychiatric wards 4 times and so I'm interested in that too like. I don't like medication though makes you sleepy, fat or shaky and aggressive and doesn't work generally ya ask me.

I need a companion or a few. A woman maybe or just some friends. It doesn't matter like as long as I don't end up lying on the streets alone all the time drinking red wine. I had a girlfriend for a wee while and she wasn't right for me because she wanted to be a police officer. She was sweet in some ways aye but too cynical, I couldn't abide by her. I spent a night in a phonebox aye and a night in a train station. I'm so lonely I mean I just can't abide living with my family I need some real companionship.

If you want to chat add me on your MSN aye? paceyjwitter@hotmail.com

if you need to chat I'll throw down with ya

glad you are with us RedRed!

Some of your story reminded me of me, especially the part about drinking Fair Trade Wine and your reasons for it. I remember going to Hawaii and drinking an abominably cheap red wine (Gallo) in the states there because it was "imported." One time I was drinking Almaden red wine at 12 % and fell off my bicycle and did myself a mischief. By the time I was well enough to leave the hospital I hobbled down to the local to buy 7% Tyrolia red wine because that 12% was obviously too strong and I needed a less powerful wine if I wanted to stay on my bike and out of hospital.

Isn't it insane what we put up with when we are into drinking wine? Not to mention what too much red wine does to our digestive processes! Talk about foul!

sure, I'll chat with ya' about it. I am an alcoholic Aspie, too.

Merle
Merle

RedRedWhine, I love your username!

You can be my friend!

That's an interesting way of looking at it; now I feel like I was a philosopher who recieved my salary from Social Services too! That explains what I wanted to explain, perfectly! I wasn't doing nothing, I was philosophising! I also totally understand people who go on the Dole just so that they have time to write; I would do it.


My life declined in equality after my AS diagnosis too (when I was 14). It was so humiliating, a blow to my already-nonexistant self-esteem!

You are blaming your addiction to red wine due to Asperger's.

And then you are taking that blame and putting it against other people in the AS society in your area because they play video games?

Do you agree with these two statements?

Actually that makes me wonder how many alcoholics, and people with drink problems, ( that includes me, from mid-university to late 20's) and homeless people ( that includes me at two times in my life)are actually AS and suffering from the executive dysfunction, sensory difficulties etc which might genuinely make it difficult to live in "usual" way.
For instance that guy Neil, on the brilliant BBC programme/series, " Seven-up', following a dozen children in the UK from 7 years old into adulthood. And how that wonderful charming talky thinking child became a homeless depressed wreck. Tho i think he is now "housed" and working on a local council as elected representative he seems to have been very slowed up. I can remember when i first identified with him, after my own breakdown, apparently he used to get hundreds of letters from people in difficulty too, because it's not often you see on national television a REAL intelligent charmingly talkative boy from middle classes who goes to university become massively depressed, homeless etc. ( apart from Sid Barrett) it was amazing in fact. .

This could possibly help - http://spiritualemergency.blogspot.com/

Hi. Welcome to WP. Hope you like it here.

To be honest the weather at this time of year could drive anyone to drink.