Feelings of intense wanting

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When I see a picture or video of the little bear named Flake I wish she was mine and start crying, and I'm so happy and so sad at the same time. I've felt this many times before, sometimes with other polar bears, once with a little boy in a movie called Random Passage. I sobbed all night because I wanted a little boy just like him and in the movie he died; his mother had been so busy helping other people during a fever epidemic that she neglected him and she only held him and talked to him when he was dead. furthermore he was blind from the fever. He woke up one morning shouting and crying that he couldn't see.

Sometimes I feel like that in conjunction with people that I wish I knew better, but can't because of various situations.

C.S. Lewis described that feeling in his book Searching For Joy (?) and used a German word because English doesn't have the word. I need to look that up.

I do get that -- it's more like such a tremendous need to be near something. I c an't describe it adequately enough.

I adore little kids, and can't help smiling when I see one. When ever I see a baby or preschool-age kid crying I have this intense desire to hold them, hug them and tell them everything alright, even though it's not socially acceptable to do that with some stranger's kid. You should see me around my 16-month-old nephew, a stranger could mistake me for his dad by how much I fuss over the adorable little rascal!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sehnsucht_(C._S._Lewis)
Sehnsucht is a German word from C._S._Lewis's book "Surprised by Joy". Lewis denotes by Sehnsucht the "inconsolable longing" in the human heart for "we know not what."

I dunno what causes this longing, but I feel it horribly, and often. It is like a part of my insides is missing. When the feeling comes over me, I want to be held and look deep into loving eyes.
I found the arms and eyes once or twice in my life, and felt at peace. But the love was fleeting and went away.

This hole in my heart cant be filled with the things I do
This hole in my heart can only be filled by you.

It cant be filled by:
Food,
Beer,
Candy,
Bondo,
Putty,
Clay,
Etc.

Thank you Mudboy. Have you read the book?

No, I never heard of the book before. Was it good or helpful?
I can find almost anything but I cant find the answer that fills that emptiness.

For me the book was absolutely delightful. I cannot guarantee the same for you, but it won't hurt you to read it. You should be able to find it cheap in a good used book store. I think you would find his experience interesting.

Whenever I wake up in the morning and look at the empty side of my bed. I always think to my self, "Wouldn't it be nice to wake up with someone who loves and understands me for who I am?". Just once I would like to experience that in earnest, that is the most intense feeling of wanting that I have. I'm not sure why I always have this feeling, its not about sex but companionship, there is something about sharing a bed with someone that just seems to exemplify companionship to me.

I always feel the most alone when I wake up in the morning.

I got a newsletter from an organization called "Catalyst for Cats," which helps feral cats. There was a little Siamese baby kitty that was so adorable.