I think I may be clinically depressed

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jamesohgoodie
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27 Jan 2008, 3:34 pm

so i've been talking with two friends who're experienced with clinical depression, and they feel i have the classic symptoms.

- difficulty getting out of bed in the morning
- lack of motivation in my work
- need for constant isolation
- antagonistic relationships with most people i know
- feelings of guilt where they're not warranted

now, granted a lot of depressing stuff has happened recently. in the last month one close friend of mine went to jail and another killed himself. but a lot of good stuff has been happening too. i'm graduating from college in a few months, i scored a great internship with an artist i really admire, i'm dating for the first time in years, but i'm excited over NONE of it.

i'm thinking of arranging time with an MD to see if maybe i should go on medication. i heard Lexapro is good, and it can even help you deal with your autism. i'll have to give up drinking, but to choose drinking and being miserable over not drinking and being happy would just be stupid.


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27 Jan 2008, 5:30 pm

Giving up drinking was the best thing I ever did for myself. Taking prescription antidepressant medication was a close second.

Good luck James, let us know how you go.



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27 Jan 2008, 5:39 pm

I am an expert on clinical depression! I have many years of first hand experience.

Anti depressions work really well but sometimes you have to experiment to find what works best. Also you have to deal with the underlying causes of what causes the depression and not depend soley on drug treatment. I wonder if there is a counsellor in your area who understands aspergers?


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27 Jan 2008, 6:13 pm

j, this is what really sticks out to me:

jamesohgoodie wrote:
in the last month one close friend of mine killed himself.


This isn't something casual to 'also' mention!

This is the number one trauma in a persons life :!:

It breaks people :!:

:(

This will make "a lot of good stuff has been happening too" so utterly irrevelant
it will be the taste of bitter ashes in your mouth.

I suggest the first thing to do is get counciling with a specialist in grief and post traumatic stress disorder.

And 'shop around' before you commit to one!
If you're like me, I have a habit of becoming 'loyal on the first date'
only finding out after wasting a lot of time they aren't the best choice for me.

Good wishes and best luck.


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27 Jan 2008, 6:50 pm

James,

Those are things that could be ANYTHING!

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Depression symptoms of manic depression

Persistently sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
Decreased appetite and/or weight loss, or overeating and weight gain
Fatigue, decreased energy, being "slowed down"
Thoughts of death or suicide, suicide attempts
Restlessness, irritability
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain


Read that carefully, and note the order. HOW could you have depression without at least the first two symptoms?



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27 Jan 2008, 8:19 pm

Because of the severe trauma you have had, and the good stress too, I think you ought to go to a general physician first for a referral and consultation. Depression isn't necessarily "cured" by anti-depressants. And Lexapro is a heavy-duty drug. My husband went on it because he was so overworked and stressed out that he was blacking out and having amnesia. The lexapro stopped the immediate danger but was very unpleasant. He had to quit his job and we moved because our lifestyle was so caustic.

I was depressed and have been seeing a psychologist (no meds) for Cognitive Behavior Therapy. It's not perfect either but it has helped tremendously. It's good for finding out why you are feeling depressed. Looking at your life, decisions and recent events objectively with someone who is unrelated to your is a great to piece together what works and what doesn't.



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27 Jan 2008, 9:05 pm

2ukenkerl wrote:
James,

Those are things that could be ANYTHING!

Quote:
Depression symptoms of manic depression

Persistently sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
Decreased appetite and/or weight loss, or overeating and weight gain
Fatigue, decreased energy, being "slowed down"
Thoughts of death or suicide, suicide attempts
Restlessness, irritability
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain


Read that carefully, and note the order. HOW could you have depression without at least the first two symptoms?


I have to disagree. Clinical depression is not always accompanied by a feeling of sadness or hopelessness or pessimism. According to the DSM-IV, the individual must have either a feeling of sadness or hopelessness or a loss of interest in pleasurable activities. Depending on the individual, the latter may not be an especially emotional experience. Some people feel more indifferent and less emotional when they are depressed. Depression is characterized by physical symptoms as well.

This is the diagnostic criteria for a major depressive episode (one of several forms of clinical depression) from the DSM-IV:

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Criteria for Major Depressive Episode

A. Five (or more) of the following symptoms have been present during the same 2-week period and represent a change from previous functioning; at least one of the symptoms is either

(1) depressed mood or

(2) loss of interest or pleasure.

Note: Do not include symptoms that are clearly due to a general medical condition, or mood-incongruent delusions or hallucinations.

(1) depressed mood most of the day, nearly every day, as indicated by either subjective report (e.g., feels sad or empty) or observation made by others (e.g., appears tearful). Note: In children and adolescents, can be irritable mood.

(2) markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities most of the day, nearly every day (as indicated by either subjective account or observation made by others)

(3) significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain (e.g., a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month), or decrease or increase in appetite nearly every day. Note: In children, consider failure to make expected weight gains.

(4) Insomnia or Hypersomnia nearly every day

(5) psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly every day (observable by others, not merely subjective feelings of restlessness or being slowed down)

(6) fatigue or loss of energy nearly every day

(7) feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt (which may be delusional) nearly every day (not merely self-reproach or guilt about being sick)

( 8 ) diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, nearly every day (either by subjective account or as observed by others)

(9) recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide

B. The symptoms do not meet criteria for a Mixed Episode (see p. 335).

C. The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition (e.g., hypothyroidism).

E. The symptoms are not better accounted for by Bereavement, i.e., after the loss of a loved one, the symptoms persist for longer than 2 months or are characterized by marked functional impairment, morbid preoccupation with worthlessness, suicidal ideation, psychotic symptoms, or psychomotor retardation.


Whether or not the OP meets this criteria is a different matter entirely, something to be determined by himself and whomever he turns to for formal assistance. (I would say "between him and any professional he turns to for help", but I understand that people have different beliefs about how to handle depression, and I am not here to pass judgement.)



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27 Jan 2008, 9:29 pm

I have an online friend who's NT, and clinically depressed.



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27 Jan 2008, 10:34 pm

EvilKimEvil wrote:
2ukenkerl wrote:
James,

Those are things that could be ANYTHING!

Quote:
Depression symptoms of manic depression

Persistently sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
Decreased appetite and/or weight loss, or overeating and weight gain
Fatigue, decreased energy, being "slowed down"
Thoughts of death or suicide, suicide attempts
Restlessness, irritability
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain


Read that carefully, and note the order. HOW could you have depression without at least the first two symptoms?


I have to disagree. Clinical depression is not always accompanied by a feeling of sadness or hopelessness or pessimism. According to the DSM-IV, the individual must have either a feeling of sadness or hopelessness or a loss of interest in pleasurable activities. Depending on the individual, the latter may not be an especially emotional experience. Some people feel more indifferent and less emotional when they are depressed. Depression is characterized by physical symptoms as well.

This is the diagnostic criteria for a major depressive episode (one of several forms of clinical depression) from the DSM-IV:

Quote:
Criteria for Major Depressive Episode

A. Five (or more) of the following symptoms have been present during the same 2-week period and represent a change from previous functioning; at least one of the symptoms is either

(1) depressed mood or

(2) loss of interest or pleasure.

Note: Do not include symptoms that are clearly due to a general medical condition, or mood-incongruent delusions or hallucinations.

(1) depressed mood most of the day, nearly every day, as indicated by either subjective report (e.g., feels sad or empty) or observation made by others (e.g., appears tearful). Note: In children and adolescents, can be irritable mood.

(2) markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities most of the day, nearly every day (as indicated by either subjective account or observation made by others)

(3) significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain (e.g., a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month), or decrease or increase in appetite nearly every day. Note: In children, consider failure to make expected weight gains.

(4) Insomnia or Hypersomnia nearly every day

(5) psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly every day (observable by others, not merely subjective feelings of restlessness or being slowed down)

(6) fatigue or loss of energy nearly every day

(7) feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt (which may be delusional) nearly every day (not merely self-reproach or guilt about being sick)

( 8 ) diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, nearly every day (either by subjective account or as observed by others)

(9) recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide

B. The symptoms do not meet criteria for a Mixed Episode (see p. 335).

C. The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning.

D. The symptoms are not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., a drug of abuse, a medication) or a general medical condition (e.g., hypothyroidism).

E. The symptoms are not better accounted for by Bereavement, i.e., after the loss of a loved one, the symptoms persist for longer than 2 months or are characterized by marked functional impairment, morbid preoccupation with worthlessness, suicidal ideation, psychotic symptoms, or psychomotor retardation.


Whether or not the OP meets this criteria is a different matter entirely, something to be determined by himself and whomever he turns to for formal assistance. (I would say "between him and any professional he turns to for help", but I understand that people have different beliefs about how to handle depression, and I am not here to pass judgement.)


Even so, it would be very unlikely to not fit my criteria and still fit the DSM you listed. The DSM you listed said at least FIVE, and many covered areas like suicide, depression, etc... I don't know how you could have depression without having such problems. In fact, the first 2 that you have to have one of are similar, and one is depression, and one is about as close as you can get without really having it.

As for how to handle REAL chemical depression, it can be difficult and risky. Normal depression can often be handled by distraction, fixing the problem, etc... Of course, AS people may even have more of a problem with that due to AS symptoms. And I know about both of those because I have had both. I was even diagnosed with chemical depression, and they tried cymbalta. Luckily, things cleared up, and I went off the cymbalta. Frankly, I hated cymbalta.



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27 Jan 2008, 10:35 pm

Berserker wrote:
I have an online friend who's NT, and clinically depressed.

Congratulations


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27 Jan 2008, 10:38 pm

i should clarify some things. because of the heavy workload at school right now it certainly could be stress. and the friend who's in jail is only in there for a month and actually gets out in two weeks. also the other friend who killed himself i hadn't seen in almost five years but i did just find this out recently. i'm willing to concede it could be stress or trauma, i don't know.

the issues i described in my original post (problems with isolation, guilt, motivation, etc) i've had for some time now, going back to high school. again, could be nothing, but i want to talk to a doctor and find out for sure. i know the medication won't magically cure my problems, but if it can help me function better so i can live my life well i want to at least look into it.

and while i'm far from a drunk i enjoy a fifth of Jack occasionally. but it's something i'm definitely willing to give up in this situation.


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28 Jan 2008, 8:39 am

I think you're making the right decision, and your willingness to get better will certainly work to your advantage in treatment.

This is what alarms me:

jamesohgoodie wrote:
i'm graduating from college in a few months, i scored a great internship with an artist i really admire, i'm dating for the first time in years, but i'm excited over NONE of it.


The crucial thing about depression is that you feel pretty much no emotion. This is because your brain's shutting out allkinds of stimulationfro m outside world, recycling the same 'thoughts' endlessly. This is a specific state the brain can get into and cannot get out easily without good help; it's not just some 'state of mind' you happened to be in.

The depressed find it difficult to get up in the morning because their brains are doing mischief to their physiological system.

Go see a good doctor, but do a bit of research beforehand in order to choos the one you want, like the above poster suggests. During treatment, depression can sometimes seem to have gone leaving you feel better and then come back (yes nasty business). If you find good medicine that works and the side effects are manageable, don't go off it before the doc says go. This is not the time to be debating, "Do I fit the diagnostic criteria?" "What's the difinition of depression?"because it can do some more mischief on you if left alone.