So, this morning, the 5th night in a row of not sleeping because of extreme stomach pain, I got up and asked my husband to take me to the hospital. He told me that it was just heartburn and to go back down to the sofa and prop myself up. I was in way too much pain. I finally drove myself to the hospital. By the time I got there, I was in huge and severe pain, I could barely talk to them and tell them what was wrong with me.
Now, what frightened me was that I was obviously in severe pain, but I told them that I was Asperger's and I was getting sensory overloaded from the pain. They were still very frustrated with me when I was having difficulty pulling up the pictures in my brain to give them answers to things. When my husband finally showed up (2-1/2 hours later) he was able to help them more. I was just very frustrated with myself for not being able to answer things. I kept trying to make funny quips, but they definitely weren't coming out right and even my answers were not coming out right.
I don't know if my husband noticed how weird I was. Maybe he's actually really used to me by now, and he didn't really think much about it. He was much better about dealing with me and trying to deal with the hospital stuff, too.
What scared me was that I have never been THAT overloaded and I was really struggling. For the first time in my life that I can really remember, I had the huge urge to scream and flap. I don't know why I thought that it would make me feel better, but it just seemed like it would help. I didn't do it. But that was prolly because I was a little busy trying to curl up in a ball and make myself as small as possible in the hope that it would stop hurting. I kept trying to flip through the picture cards in my brain to retrieve the answers but I couldn't seem to find the right ones. It was like I was looking in the wrong boxes or something. It was very weird. I've never felt that way ever. It was scary to me that the hospital staff did not seem to get it about the Asperger's and I was very concerned that they were so impatient with me while I was trying to answer things. I'm going to set up some training for them. (I can do this through my job).
I was very scared for me and just kept thinking this evening that I was very glad for my husband to be there finally because he was able to bridge the gaps that I was not able to bridge for some reason. I'm usually pretty high functioning and very verbal, but I really wanted to find some other way to communicate. It wasn't working the way I was trying to do it.
What do you guys think? Have you ever been so sensory overloaded that you have issues trying to connect with other people? And especially if you are normally high functioning and you have had a moment that you felt your functioning level was WAY decreased. I know that when under stress our functioning drops, but I've never had such a severe discrepancy before.
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"All those things that you taught me to fear
I've got them in my garden now
And you're not welcome here" ---Poe