Horrible.
I accidentally let my dad find out I had been using my other credit card again & really upset him (he pays off my cards so he has a right to be upset!)
Then I have been really "aspie" all day for some reason & keep doing weird things.
Like, I apparently "pushed in" to the queue for the drinking-water tap. I wanted cold water & they were busy making tea/coffee, & the tap was free so I went for it. They complained & said they were in a queue for the hot water, whereas I had thought they were just standing around talking, & faffing around with the milk like they usually do.
So, just to make a bad situation worse, I decided to explain how I "didn't understand the process" for making tea because I never drink it, which is why I didn't realise they were queuing for the tap, and just for good measure, that I couldn't understand the point of going to all the bother of making tea anyway, when it was so much easier just to get a glass of cold water. "Yes, I know, I'm just strange...." - and this to someone who, with her friend, already thinks I'm a rude freak & goes out of her way to let me know it!
Then I was (apparently) talking loudly & getting over-excited so that other people could overhear what I was saying to a colleague (so what if they could overhear - the other people nearby weren't even in our team, so why did he give a flying $&^*% whether they could hear me or not?????) so I said "I wasn't talking loudly, this is talking loudly!! !" & everyone looked around & stared. (That was only at about 2/3 volume, by the way!)
These are only the worst things I have done today. And I feel really shaky & like I want to cry, & I don't know why. It's probably to do with the credit card thing, I suppose, but it sucks!