Mw99 wrote:
Spokane_Girl wrote:
You said you were diagnosed with a personality disorder. I don't think they are considered NTs.
"Personality disorder" is a loaded term. It carries with it a lot of negative connotations. And it's not quite as ennobling and redeeming as "asperger's syndrome." In fact, it's totally and 100% degrading. I would appreciate it if you stop rubbing it in my face.
Besides, the person who diagnosed me said that "based on the answers you gave us, it appears that you have a personality disorder not specified." That doesn't mean a thing.
Before I learned about AS, I thought I had schizoid personality disorder because it was the only thing that seemed to make sense, though it was severly incomplete compared to AS. Why should it be insulting to you if your problem was psychological rather than neurological? Either way it wouldn't be your fault, and both manefest as social disabilities. The "disorder" label is the only thing with negative implications, it's a suffix to both, and it would be true if it affects your life in a negative way. I don't know what you are, but if you worry too much about terms and labels you won't be able to find the right kind of help for you.
I actually was the oppsite about AS, and spent a period of time in denial even though deep down I knew it was the only fit. The idea that I might be autstic of any kind scared me and made me feel helpless. But I kept going back and learning a little bit at a time, till there finally came a point when I knew there was no denying it anymore. When I told my mom, that was the point at which I truly accepted it, stopped blaming myself, and learned to find ways to deal with it.