Worst day of my life.

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I get depressed a lot. Even a little thing gets me going.

Today, I started feeling sad for no reason whatsoever. I just didn't want to talk to anyone and started feeling anxiety. As the day went on, I started feeling more depressed. Then, during Math, the teacher said I needed to grow up. That sent me over the edge, because it was true. I'm afraid of growing up, and after I heard him, I just sunk deeper and deeper into depression. It was the first time my depression actually made me tear. On the way home, I really wanted to just jump in front of the train when it came.

When I got home, I plopped down on my bed and started crying. 40 minutes later, I'm here writing up this post.

Can you go to see a movie, or do some other enjoyable activity that will get your mind off of this day? Do something that is indulgent, that will make you feel better.

Kris

I don't like leaving my house. No movies for me. I'm just waiting it out. I usually feel better if I don't 'think' myself into depression.

Sorry you are feeling so bad Does your teacher know that you are AS. In some ways it is a developmental delay...we do grow up we just do it in a different time frame then they do and we are more mature in certain ways. Asking me to grow up is about as effective as asking a 1 year old not to wet his diapers...they are not wetting them because it like the sensation of wet diapers The point is we DO grow up in most ways and other ways their idea of "growing up" (not listening to punk rock music or not collecting stuffed animals or rocks just because you are over 12)....just seems silly to me. Who am I hurting by enjoying childish things as long as I am paying my rent and going to work?

You will grow up in some ways and other ways just aren't that important.

awww

I hope things are better...

I'm undiagnosed. No one knows anything about me mainly because I don't tell anyone.

I don't blame him for telling me to grow up. I just wish I had a time machine or something so I can correct all the mistakes I've made.

Here's the story: Teacher was ranting about the principal. A student asked if there was a way to get him fired. I mumbled "blowjob" (Reference to Bill Clinton) under my breath, and someone heard me and laughed. Teacher asks what's so funny. Person who heard me and told him. Teacher told me to grow up.

So yea, it was my fault. But I can't help it at times...my mouth has a mind of it's own.
After he said that to me, I just nodded and said "I know, I'm a bad person." (Not sarcastically) Then after that, my emotions just went crazy. I could hardly pay attention in class and I wanted to just disappear or die.

To anyone who's curious, my teacher refers to the principal as "Bush the Third", that's how bad the principal is.

has your day gotten better yet?
This may sound weird but do you have any 'happy clothes'? Clothing you bought not for cost or need but because it made you happy?

I have an Emily the Strange cat hoodie that I bought purely because the cat ears make me happy ^^ and I wear it simply for that reason, although it is a warm hoodie.

I feel a bit better now. I don't have any "happy clothes". Infact, out of an entire closet full of clothes, I wear the same 2 shirts/pants and I alternate.

I only wear 4 pairs of pants, 3 different shirts, and 3 sweatshirts.
Plus my penguin, plaid, hello kitty, and polar bear jammie pants of course ^^

^^' I'm a jammie junkie, I love making and wearing them. It's an odd obsession...

You might want to get a happy item of one sort or another, I have my hello kitty plushie, my two comforters (which I have had since I was five), and my happy outfit. When I feel sad they make me happy again ^^.

It might work, you never know...

It sounds like the teacher is immature.

It's a silly joke really.

And it's not the worst day of your life, believe me there will be worse things that will happen .

He seems to just enjoy his position of superiority over you.

And grow up, hey the people should grow up if they impeach Clinton on "extramarital sex".