Just a unhappy feeling

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If this were Lake Tahoe in 1997 and I felt
just as stranded this particular day, then
I would have the Greyhound option and would.

My V.A.T was intriguing, but when I go home
to a room and a hour walk to a panera bread(to be
just as depressed about being stranded), or
Barnes and Nobles to get away from the house
and that is it. then 2.5 hours to Burnsville to
have same few options, and no bus service,
and no where to express, other than posting
here, makes me want to catch a greyhound bus.

I just got my overall rejection letter from the
city of Apple Valley for a custodian(pathetic be I)
. And all of Rosemount is a negative space of
rejection, and don't expect much from TArget.
I expect rejection there, This place becomes(apple
Valley) another form of rejection. And you wonder
I am unhappy.

If it weren't for Susan(Vocational Help) status I
would be on that Greyhound bus. I didn't come
here for a last paycheck, I left that in S.F, Cal.

So far chucked from a job, and AppleBeee's has
asked me to leave early on, and that only leaves
Caribou in Rosemount, and Panera Bread(A.Valley)
and Barnes and Nobles(A.Valley) and equally stranded
and isolated. That is why I am posting here, this
or sleep another 24 hours.

I slept from 6pm to 2pm Friday to Saturday, and if
i go to the house early on(7pm) I will sleep another
8pm to 8pm and not want to go out of bed in a town
of rejection and isolation.

I have 2 weeks for V.A.T results, and hit Walmart, ect...
during this time. The way it is going all of Apple Valley
(not the house), is the valley of rejection and isolation.
It could be raining cats and dogs I wouldn't care, and if
It does so be it. It is that or sleep another ?24hours
to nothing to look forward to but a city and area of
rejection and isolation.

I am now reduced to begging* for cigarettes(one step
higher then a homeless feeling) and being rejected there
as well as the job scene here.

I am now eyeing ashtray bins and being snarled at for
some feeling and emotion. Pathetic and undeserving to
be happy me. Bang Bang.
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I have trying to snag a cigareete for 2 hours
for some type of positive, but to be rejected
even there. I might as well be stranded in
FRemont,California(that is what apple valley
reminds me of).

for those who try to tell me there is bus
service(such aas van pickuP), true, but
the van is preplanned(I am spontaneous
or these moods will happen), and the busses
only work on weekday in 3 hour gaps iin the
morning and 3 hours in the eveings.

This is what I really hate about car people.
They see cars and not experienced crappy
bus services, thus drove a car too long to
be in tune with this. Right nowI would have
been standed anywhere, and stuck there until
until sometime AM to AppleValley on monday.


The house was asleep and my sense of
spontanity is not built on lame bus schedules
and being dependent on ones car. Sad! but
true, so bus advice is mute to me. I lived
in places like this and Fremont,Cal and know
better.

I am going off line now, and hope I didn't waste
your folks time, and must enter my tomb of silence
and sleep (once I get home) another 24hours and
prepare for more of lifes rejections. Goodby for now.
and I will be offline for a while

Hopefully snag a pre used cigarette butt so I can
at least have that cigaratte(pathetic be I)

Ban G B an G!

Poor, Ghosty. I wish I could say something that could help you out. Give you some info or something. But, alas, my Helpful Info Well is run dry.

Have a good sleep and hope you have some pleasant dreams. And come back to WP more. We miss you.

~Sophist...

Hope you feel better soon GH.

Life does indeed suck sometimes.

Finding work in an NT world is difficult for people like us, but not impossible. Be persistant, something will come along.

This coming from someone who once saw a secratary put an application of mine through the paper shredder moments after giving it to her.