I am always in my head, thinking about anything and everything. I see numbers like no one I know does. I see them in different shapes and colors and textures, and to me it is as if I feel the numbers. I know what it is, it is synesthesia, but I am always spacing out into my own "world" of sorts of numbers, patterns, and theories. I like to think about things that are supposedly impossible. When I am thinking, there is no way of actually getting me out of that state, it is like I am in a trance of some sort. When I am in my 'world' I do not see you, I do not hear you, I do not even sense you. You are not there, you were never there, because you are not in my brilliant world that was made for me, and me alone. Sometimes I am so much into the 'world' that I have to be slapped to get out of it.
I go there whenever I am stressed or sad or down or even just bored. I go there when there is no where else to go to calm me down. I go there because it is my utopia. It is my own piece of heaven that no one can take away from me. If I am ever in a time of need, I just slip into my own consciousness and never come out until I absolutely have too.
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"No, I don't know that atheists should be considered as citizens, nor should they be considered as patriots. This is one nation under God."
- George H. W, Bush
"God made me an atheist. Who are you to question his wisdom."