a friend once told me: "you are all the time what other people get high to try to be."
i actually thought that was sort of cool.
i've also been told that talking to me was like talking to a child-the naivete, i finally figured out, after i got insulted too often by that and asked for an explanation. it's not an insult, i was told. they're apparently talking about the honesty, the trusting nature...we spell that gullible where i'm from, and since i've also been told i was paranoid this confuses me a bit. my guess is i get paranoid when i overexamine in an effort not to be too gullible.
a person in my high school told me a rock showed more emotion than i did, at least if you threw a rock hard enough it cracked a smile.
i was called "miss spock"...sometimes this seemed friendly, sometimes it didn't...i suppose it meant they saw me as analytical, unemotional, distant...?
yet i've also been told i overreact.
i get told all the time that i'm smart...and i suppose so, though a lot of it is just me picking up random facts like i'm a magnet and data bits are iron filings.
my creativity is mentioned...in writing and photography and art...but people also see me, and accurately, as inflexible and rigid at times.
i've been told i should be a lawyer because i see everything as an argument...this is inaccurate of course, as they are telling me how i see the world, which is something they are not privy to. and i don't...but obviously i give that impression.
i've been called an old soul.
i've been called immature.
there are probably as many views as there are viewers, and likely much depends on the tenor of the interaction.
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i've stopped fighting my demons-we've joined forces.