richardbenson wrote:
i feel like a 90 year old already trapped in a 28 year olds body

Actually feel much older than that. And always limited by my body. P.K. Dicks "black iron prison" is always playing around the periphery of my thoughts. Although it's more often the more personal "this prison, flesh". Another recurring trope, the Tibetan aphorism "Dying all the time".
This always gets exacerbated around the passing of a beloved pet, like "willie the cat", yesterday. Now he is rapidly transmogrifying into and being subsumed by a lovely ficus.
My wife and I intend to take up sky diving when we "hit" our 70's. Then if we make it to 80, it's off to Pamplona. If we last the day we'll take up bull-fighting full time.
At any rate, the awareness of mortality is a crucial part of my practice of living. I am constantly preparing and anticipating my next encounter with the Bardo realms and, so that I may remain undistracted and at the proper moment vibrate the syllable "Ram".
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When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. Hunter S. Thompson